Paranoid delusions or anxiety or something

[SilverFog]

Hey I don't know if this is the right lace to put this I'm sorry. But I can't stop freaking out about everyone around me hating me and being mad at me and it's really bad. I don't know how to fix this I'm sorry I just can't calm down it's been a few hours and I'm scared and my heart is beating really fast, I'm sorry if I'm bothering anyone I just don't know what to do and I don't wanna bother any of my friends by spamming them, I don't want them to get mad at me. I'm sorry

 

[whywere]

NEVER EVER be sorry, NEVER!

I know the feeling so VERY well.

On more than one occasion I have had mental health folks tell me that I am so paranoid with anxiety about thinking that others NOT liking me.

I previous statement was NOT to be mean or anything but smiles and love to you, it just means that I fully understand where you are coming from.

I am 69 and have fought this damn feeling all my life, BUT I know that most humans and humanity is caring and kind and the few that are not, never mean a hill of beans anyway.

YOU are a VERY thoughtful, kind and ultra caring soul. Your posts scream this so much.

I wish I was half as nice as you, you are just a WONDERFUL spirit!

Have a great Sunday and a upcoming week filled with love and sunshine.

Walter

 

[SilverFog]

NEVER EVER be sorry, NEVER!

I know the feeling so VERY well.

On more than one occasion I have had mental health folks tell me that I am so paranoid with anxiety about thinking that others NOT liking me.

I previous statement was NOT to be mean or anything but smiles and love to you, it just means that I fully understand where you are coming from.

I am 69 and have fought this damn feeling all my life, BUT I know that most humans and humanity is caring and kind and the few that are not, never mean a hill of beans anyway.

YOU are a VERY thoughtful, kind and ultra caring soul. Your posts scream this so much.

I wish I was half as nice as you, you are just a WONDERFUL spirit!

Have a great Sunday and a upcoming week filled with love and sunshine.

Walter

Thank you, I appreciate this. Made me feel a bit better, same to u

 

[dogteeth]

I see it's been a few hours, I hope the anxiety has gone down a bit. I relate a lot to your post, my low self esteem combined with high anxiety puts me in this state often.

I needed to find things that I can rely on to take the edge off and distract myself during these spirals. The good thing is, it sounds like you can recognize it as paranoia/ anxiety, so you know it's not necessarily rational even though the feelings are overwhelming you. Trying to keep that in mind while simultaneously trying to calm the intense feelings down, helped me a lot.

My anxiety/distress comes in different levels and so I need different things depending on how stressed I am.

Lower/ background anxiety: maybe a comfort show or doing a hobby I enjoy

Medium anxiety:
Laying in a dark room listening to loud music or dancing vigorously

High/extreme anxiety:
Filling a bowl/bucket with ice water and dunking my head in, Eating something super spicy/ sour, really strong peppermint oil under the nose

Those are just some of the things that help me. Everyone has different things that help them though, I tried a lot that didn't work at all. You can try a bunch of stuff until you find things that help you get through these moments.

It's good you have friends though.
Maybe when you're calmer you can go through your messages and look for kind things they've said to you. Or tell them directly once you're not so panicked that you sometimes are worried about being unlikable to the people you care about. Hopefully, if they're good friends, they'll reassure you.

Idk how often these feelings happen for you, but for me since I feel this way pretty often I wrote that kind of stuff down. That way when I feel like everyone hates me I can take out the paper and see oh, my best friend said she appreciates having me in her life and I'm super important to her, that can help a little to fight back those inner demons in those moments.

I wish you all the best! It takes a while to learn how to deal with your brain (I'm definitely still learning too), but things have gotten a lot better with practice, surrounding myself with kind people, therapy and meds.

 

[SilverFog]

I see it's been a few hours, I hope the anxiety has gone down a bit. I relate a lot to your post, my low self esteem combined with high anxiety puts me in this state often.

I needed to find things that I can rely on to take the edge off and distract myself during these spirals. The good thing is, it sounds like you can recognize it as paranoia/ anxiety, so you know it's not necessarily rational even though the feelings are overwhelming you. Trying to keep that in mind while simultaneously trying to calm the intense feelings down, helped me a lot.

My anxiety/distress comes in different levels and so I need different things depending on how stressed I am.

Lower/ background anxiety: maybe a comfort show or doing a hobby I enjoy

Medium anxiety:
Laying in a dark room listening to loud music or dancing vigorously

High/extreme anxiety:
Filling a bowl/bucket with ice water and dunking my head in, Eating something super spicy/ sour, really strong peppermint oil under the nose

Those are just some of the things that help me. Everyone has different things that help them though, I tried a lot that didn't work at all. You can try a bunch of stuff until you find things that help you get through these moments.

It's good you have friends though.
Maybe when you're calmer you can go through your messages and look for kind things they've said to you. Or tell them directly once you're not so panicked that you sometimes are worried about being unlikable to the people you care about. Hopefully, if they're good friends, they'll reassure you.

Idk how often these feelings happen for you, but for me since I feel this way pretty often I wrote that kind of stuff down. That way when I feel like everyone hates me I can take out the paper and see oh, my best friend said she appreciates having me in her life and I'm super important to her, that can help a little to fight back those inner demons in those moments.

I wish you all the best! It takes a while to learn how to deal with your brain (I'm definitely still learning too), but things have gotten a lot better with practice, surrounding myself with kind people, therapy and meds.

Thank u, I fell asleep at some point so I'm less overwhelmed now, I'll keep this stuff in mind to deal with my issues. I appreciate you

 

[lita-lassi]

in the pinned recovery threads there is the crisis resources for anxiety and panic attacks, i highly recommend going through all of the options available and trying as many as you feel are remotely possible even if it feels silly or ridiculous or you assume it won't help. the point is that none of them should actively hurt and at the very least you're trying something new. its pretty amazing how effective small things like temperature change, movement, strong flavors etc can help break a mental doom spiral

and, statistically, not many people are ever constantly thinking about how much they dislike or are irritated by one specific person unless they REALLY crossed the line somewhere. unless you committed some bad human rights violations, i really doubt anyone is thinking of you in the poor capacity you assumed earlier

i hope you feel better now and your day has been more productive