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won’t see what might’ve been…
- Jul 4, 2025
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I am officially broke.
Why can't I have the life of the cat that is in my lap right now? No responsibly's, no need for a job.. just simply survive.
I guess humans were meant to survive, but somewhere along the way we fucked that up.
I'm not sure when my final bus ticket will be , I just know it's gotta be soon.
I actually dreamt about the dying process.
I felt the fear and the panic. I felt my shakey breath exhale through my mouth as I told myself "okay, let's do this"
I know it's going to be a sad death.
I never wanted this. But life drove me to this point.
I am scared shitless.
This, eventually, will be my fourth attempt. I hate the fallout that comes after an attempt. Everyone walks on eggshells around you. Like you are radioactive.
So therefore, there will be no more attempts after this. I will try, and try, and try again until I drown.
The area I went to last night has zero phone service. I waited until the last two boats left for the night until I got in and "swam"
Why can't I have the life of the cat that is in my lap right now? No responsibly's, no need for a job.. just simply survive.
I guess humans were meant to survive, but somewhere along the way we fucked that up.
I'm not sure when my final bus ticket will be , I just know it's gotta be soon.
I actually dreamt about the dying process.
I felt the fear and the panic. I felt my shakey breath exhale through my mouth as I told myself "okay, let's do this"
I know it's going to be a sad death.
I never wanted this. But life drove me to this point.
I am scared shitless.
This, eventually, will be my fourth attempt. I hate the fallout that comes after an attempt. Everyone walks on eggshells around you. Like you are radioactive.
So therefore, there will be no more attempts after this. I will try, and try, and try again until I drown.
The area I went to last night has zero phone service. I waited until the last two boats left for the night until I got in and "swam"
