Discussion Overcoming SI.

[tauntisha]

Last night i couldve been finally free, i was determined in my methods to ctb.

my method in question was self immolation, i had soaked a set of clothing in a mixture ofpetrol and industrial grade paint stripper, and filled up 2 1L bottles of the same fluid, planning to cover myself at the location.

i would then film a video of me identifying myself so i wont pose as hindrance to the indentification & then place my letter, identification & the last of my money in a fireproof envelope, placing it a distance away from me.


then it happened, fear and horror rushed through my body. SI had won

i feel so fucking disappointed in myself.

 

[CantDoIt]

SI is so damn powerful even with the most peaceful of methods, I am so sorry that you had to go through that disappointment. You chose a really intense method and honestly it's no wonder that you felt your SI kick in.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I think immolation requires the most will power against SI out of any method. People trapped in theTowers during 9/11 chose to jump over being incinerated to death.

 

[Evelyn Lane]

You said you wanted pain, yet you felt SI?

 

[depressia]

а мне кажеттся что мой Si ослабевает когда я пьян и плохое настроение...и мысли в голове что если бы под рукой был SN я бы выпил нераздумывая....но это врятли сработало бы без голодания

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Sending you so much love. It's not a personal failure. You chose an extremely tough to carry out method, not dogging on it whatsoever, I think you are brave as fuck regardless. Here for you if you wanna chat.

 

[tauntisha]

Sending you so much love. It's not a personal failure. You chose an extremely tough to carry out method, not dogging on it whatsoever, I think you are brave as fuck regardless. Here for you if you wanna chat.

thank you very much, im currently reasearching methods as we speak