One week left

[Idontmatter]

I'm starting my final week. My nerves are up because I don't want to fail. I'm still planning on drinking sn on the 7th. My sn is from DD so hopefully I won't have any issues. I don't want to wake up alive like some of the other people. I have a ctb partner which also adds complications but he and I are taking the same sn and the same meds and it will be nice not to die alone. Waking up though would be a nightmare. I hope my family will forgive me. This is going to be a long week. I'm not religious but any prayers or positive thoughts are welcome. I'm not worried about the discomfort I'm just worried about waking up alive. Lots of emotions.

 

[FuneralCry]

It does sound so horrible to me as well waking up after a failed suicide attempt but after all if done correctly SN is a reliable method that so many have succeeded with. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Raven2]

Sending love and prayers your way. Do you trust your partner not to call for help?

 

[Idontmatter]

Sending love and prayers your way. Do you trust your partner not to call for help?

Oh yeah, we both trust each other. I'm leaving my phone with my belongings and we are playing music on his during the process. We are following the protocol step by step.

 

[Judy Garland]

I know you're worried. I'm worried too. I can't bring myself to do it tonight like I originally planned. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I don't want to keep living, but I also don't want to wake up from SN and suffer what others have reported suffering.

 

[Idontmatter]

I know you're worried. I'm worried too. I can't bring myself to do it tonight like I originally planned. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I don't want to keep living, but I also don't want to wake up from SN and suffer what others have reported suffering.

I'm keeping the faith with the method. We are following the protocol closely.

I'm keeping the faith with the method. We are following the protocol closely.

I know you're worried. I'm worried too. I can't bring myself to do it tonight like I originally planned. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I don't want to keep living, but I also don't want to wake up from SN and suffer what others have reported suffering.

I'm still thinking of doing a delayed post to go out a few days after I pass. This way people know it worked.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you and your partner the best if you go through with it.
May you find peace and love at the end of your journey.