xhale
x gon give it to ya (he/they)
- Jul 7, 2023
- 7
i turn 22 this september
one of my serious worries is that ill ctb too soon before my brain fully develops at 25
ive definitely matured between 19 and 22, ive managed to eliminate what used to make me sewercidal at 19… for two years i was doing really well, rent paid… beautiful boyfriend…continue college… a social life…
but ive succumbed to sewercidal ideation at 22 after everything just went to dust in the past year
i cant seem to build up anything new, i cant seem to enjoy any of my favorite activities anymore.. i cant seem to build new habits and theres no way for me to start my gender transition… worst of all i dont think theres anyone i could talk to about this
anyways, wont i just find another reason to succumb to my sewercidal ideation by 25???? so id basically just let myself dissociate thru another 2-3 years for nothing???
idk lol
