Hiya.
Love the idea of going on walkabout before you ctb.
Theres something about a personal journey somewhere on your own that kinda makes you anonymous (love that). It somehow connects you to your own heart & mind like nothing else :: that moment where your decisions are truly your own, because you're on your own, yr detached from everything. No (human) distractions...
Other travellers may be a cool at first (even ctb partners have own selfish agendas) and maybe a distraction... my feeling is they cheapen the experience. Maybe I'm wrong..?!
Travellin across borders shouldn't be a problem (large amount, but its personal consumption) :: Just know yr story and never deviate from simplicity. I was stopped at internal EU border (Spain are hardcore :: refugees etc) don't be fooled. Suicide tourism is a thing, ask Aokigahara /Yamanashi prefecture law enforcement & the guards at Beachy Head!! The minute they see meds (&if u don't have paperwork, you're suspicious! If u carrying syringes etc try make sure u look anything other than a junkie.. most addicts look so respectable anyway its scary. They know that. Consider takin Insulin/ Glucophage and tell em yr diabetic).
When u do ctb, if u want it to be successful be faraway from medical (naloxone /charcoal) 'rescue'. What are yr alternate plans? Make sure you have money / id stashed somewhere incase you're unsuccessful. You don't wanna be out of it, and be robbed. And then have zero freedom & no options...
- Then you really wanna ctb!
Maybe you don't need advice, I'm just sharing my experience/ wisdom ::
My experience, maybe can help :: (Carrying Fentanyl infact) :: I had a doctors (friend) note saying I had a 'medical condition' he was legally protected, as was i.
(They never asked for it) Dont be naive :: most arrests are made inside international borders, getting stuff from ports to cities & even towns. Hi-ways r where they net most drug traffickers, not airports.
I had a rosary round my neck, cropped short hair at the time & inspite being well built & non-confirmist, i sold em a story that I had cancer and I was on a personal 'crusade' for Christ. I kinda was, i was on a St.Jude cathedral mission. They weren't abt to chance separating a cancer victim from his meds...They never questioned further.
I'd moved large amounts of other stuff before so have learnt to keep it str8 & simple (whenever you see a cop/ official never make eye contact) & do anything to avoid incarceration, holding cells for me meant withdrawal. And...
Without medical paperwork you definately risk yr stash being confiscated. After all yr planning /effort I could not imagine a more disappointing outcome ::
that's why I'm posting.
Yr plans sound awesome, & your thinking is fkg clear, impressive :: like your 'alternatives' list :: seriously thanks for that, am planning my own.
:: your "Plan Bs" seem to rely on your wilfullness/ willingness to go through with yr ideals :: I think our animalistic will to survive is (frustratingly) powerful :: I envy people like Virginnia Woolf who can just walk into a river with her pockets full of stones... and drown.
Im afraid that choking will activate my autosurvival response. I know I personally will have to be way out of it, and if I do walk into the sea I will bind my hands behind my back so exhaustion drowns me.
Wierd stuff happens :: an ex attempted od and I found him in the top section of the cupboard where you store blankets :: you know when cats go away somewhere to die; he did that (no idea how, why it was done... he just shrugged his shoulders when they interrogated him... when I had my motorbike accident I apparently crawled off the hiway to avoid traffic, I personally think the animal in me just wanted to die in the ditch), my point is that you might have to conciously make surviving a difficult thing to do.
Or be wasted stupid enough not to care (been there also :: surfing in thunderstorms with killer swells, playing with venomous snakes etc if I'm high enough I believe I'd scalpel /slit my own throat :: have the farmvet experience to get the depth& angles right, &there's no rescue from that) but would prefer to peacefully pass out cos really I'm a coward.
So what we should be thinking is a solid 2nd option (mixing methods is the way methinks! I like the drugs n drowning idea, just do don't wanna be washed up on rocks - adrenalin may become a problem, no?)
>> am planning to dissappear into the african bush (tho it may not be as private as you think.., and people make it dangerous...) I also have ideas of getting to my favourite childhood park but that's in a city :: my family already know not to bother tracking me (i'm maybe considering going off grid, which will be hard I'd miss my ss friends not being there at the end, not knowing...) Are you leaving communication? Will you possibly be traced & tracked? I don't wanna be looked for/ found.
whatever your journey, I wish you well :: be prepared for the unexpected, change happens when u travel, embrace it. Whatever happens
like I've told my peeps b4: do not go gentle into that good night.
Goodluck
