BreakTheCycle
Life means suffering. Try to break the cycle.
- Aug 6, 2021
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So this is going to be my Goodbye-thread. I rly started to enjoy my time here in the forum and some people here rly helped by being supportive. I've had some fun time in the chat as well. Also to open up here and telling my story in my post rly helped, but my time has come.
So I've packed my backpack, got my entire money and prepared everything for my ctb. I'll start this last journey in the next couple of days to find a place that is so beautiful that it makes we wanna die there. I wont die in my home country, that's my final wish. So I'll walk every single km towards this final destination. I'm still young enough to walk 40km's a day and my time at the army will also help to achieve this goal to walk there.
It still provides a chance for me to not commit suicide. I've always loved to travel and hiking. But right here and now the chance for that are around 1%. So the chance for me to ctb still ramins at 99% and I rly want to ctb. So let's see what will happen during this journey towards Italy. It will be around 1500km's to get to my destination. So there is plenty of time to change my mind but I rly believe I've suffered enough and I finally have the right to die.
My method will be Fentanyl. I have 500mg's of this shit in my backpack. Way more than enough to kill myself. I could actually kill more than 200 people with this amount. So it should be a pretty safe way to quit this shit humans call life.
I hope for everyone in this forum to find his peace. The peace everyone deserves. And it doesn`t matter if u ctb or keep going. Just make it better than myself. I've fucked up big times. So if it is possible for u, become happy, in death or in life. I couldn't do it, even tho i tried. So this is my second wish. For u guys to become happy
Goodbye people, I wish every single one of u well.
*Edit: Right now I'm writing goodbye peoms and letters. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
So I've packed my backpack, got my entire money and prepared everything for my ctb. I'll start this last journey in the next couple of days to find a place that is so beautiful that it makes we wanna die there. I wont die in my home country, that's my final wish. So I'll walk every single km towards this final destination. I'm still young enough to walk 40km's a day and my time at the army will also help to achieve this goal to walk there.
It still provides a chance for me to not commit suicide. I've always loved to travel and hiking. But right here and now the chance for that are around 1%. So the chance for me to ctb still ramins at 99% and I rly want to ctb. So let's see what will happen during this journey towards Italy. It will be around 1500km's to get to my destination. So there is plenty of time to change my mind but I rly believe I've suffered enough and I finally have the right to die.
My method will be Fentanyl. I have 500mg's of this shit in my backpack. Way more than enough to kill myself. I could actually kill more than 200 people with this amount. So it should be a pretty safe way to quit this shit humans call life.
I hope for everyone in this forum to find his peace. The peace everyone deserves. And it doesn`t matter if u ctb or keep going. Just make it better than myself. I've fucked up big times. So if it is possible for u, become happy, in death or in life. I couldn't do it, even tho i tried. So this is my second wish. For u guys to become happy
Goodbye people, I wish every single one of u well.
*Edit: Right now I'm writing goodbye peoms and letters. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
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