Once a failure….always a failure….

[Water-Lily]

I'm still at home

I still didn't move out like I intended

My father is still…enmeshed with me I think

I find him I wanted to leave and he's not against it. Saying I could still keep the dorm but that he'd help out at home. Washing dishes, cleaning, laundry, a meal, etc

And he's always done these things so that's not the issue

It's other aspects of our relationship I don't like

How he depends on me to keep up lies and stuff

This has always been a persistant issue I don't bother fighting anymore, but it does wear on me

Coupled with friendship problems and issues potentially with my partner, I fear for my future

So, once again, I'm sorry I am not able to properly individuate from my family

I'm sorry I haven't chosen to move out and take care of myself

I'm sorry…