On the edge

[tinniman]

I am in a serious crisis. For almost a year, I have been struggling with severe ringing in my ears combined with terrible sound sensitivity. Recently, my symptoms have worsened, and unfortunately, there is no specific treatment for these ailments other than habituation, which I find extremely difficult. All of this has brought me to the point where I currently feel like I'm standing on the edge of S*, and at this moment, my brain is convinced I'll go through with it sooner or later—I feel like I'm in a tunnel.

I am under psychiatric care. At the moment, I'm taking 100 mg of pregabalin and am in the process of increasing venlafaxine to 300 mg (I was on 150 mg until now). What should I do? How can I endure this? Is it possible to come out of this state? I want to live and be happy.

What keeps me alive is my wife and 4-year-old daughter. I can't imagine causing them such pain, yet my thoughts constantly revolve around what will happen if I'm gone, which throws me into even greater panic and depression.

 

[coffeebeany]

First of all, I m deeply sorry for what you are going through. That sounds like a terrible ordeal and you must be exhausted. As for your question, I m not sure anyone can really answer this because everyone is different. If this is chronic ofc the approach is to find something to manage your symptoms and find a way to live with it. I ve been on 300 mg Venlafaxin for 1 year to treat depression etc. It worked to some extent and I had less symptoms. If you already take it you know that it's always a think to find the balance between costs and benefits.
Regardless, if I were you I would try to keep going and try treatment at this point. Maybe it takes several attempts to find something that works for you but you won't know if you don't try. I m saying this because ctb will always be an option. If you have exhausted all options the this will still be your last resort.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the relief you are searching for.