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noname223
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- Aug 18, 2020
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I thought I would never come to this point. I only take half a pill of zopiclone. My psychologist thinks it is not an addiction yet. I am not fully sure. On the internet it says you can get addicted to low dosages even on little dosages.
The reason why I take it since 2 months in a little dosage but not daily. (This changed 4 days ago. My sleeping rhythm collapsed.) I have tried everything in order to find a job. This is my third attempt to go to college. (I also tried multiple times to work a normal job in an office) Only with zopiclone I stayed stable. Without it I became manic. I would have stopped this shit way ealier because it is obviously without hope. My psychologist urged me to go further and further. He did not care about my warning, he even wanted that I sign a contract not to stop college for half a year.
I need(ed) soomeone who stops me. My psychiatrist said 3 zopiclones a week would not make you addicted. I am now pretty sure that is not the truth.
I now take 4 days straight zopiclone and without it I cannot sleep. I tried it and I am awake till 3 am.
My psychologist who urged me to go on told me something like is/was always my decision. That is wrong. He and my psychiatrist are resposnible too. They told me to go on.
I am scared to go into a clinic. I do not like the lable addicted. All my therapist are on vacation or have no time. (Tbh they are no help either even they are present)
I have like 1000 different medication here. I tried a lot in the past. I think try tonight increase of the dosage of seroquel (I don't want to become dependent on more neuroleptics but I have no choice) and maybe I take Amitriptyline. Both can make pretty sleepy. However the Ami could increase my mania. I not only have the problem to fall asleep I also wake up like every 30 minutes. I decreased the amount of college time. I really have psychological problems to end my time in college. Because I know it is my last chance. However it is 99% certain there are no chances to go through wiith it now.
The reason why I take it since 2 months in a little dosage but not daily. (This changed 4 days ago. My sleeping rhythm collapsed.) I have tried everything in order to find a job. This is my third attempt to go to college. (I also tried multiple times to work a normal job in an office) Only with zopiclone I stayed stable. Without it I became manic. I would have stopped this shit way ealier because it is obviously without hope. My psychologist urged me to go further and further. He did not care about my warning, he even wanted that I sign a contract not to stop college for half a year.
I need(ed) soomeone who stops me. My psychiatrist said 3 zopiclones a week would not make you addicted. I am now pretty sure that is not the truth.
I now take 4 days straight zopiclone and without it I cannot sleep. I tried it and I am awake till 3 am.
My psychologist who urged me to go on told me something like is/was always my decision. That is wrong. He and my psychiatrist are resposnible too. They told me to go on.
I am scared to go into a clinic. I do not like the lable addicted. All my therapist are on vacation or have no time. (Tbh they are no help either even they are present)
I have like 1000 different medication here. I tried a lot in the past. I think try tonight increase of the dosage of seroquel (I don't want to become dependent on more neuroleptics but I have no choice) and maybe I take Amitriptyline. Both can make pretty sleepy. However the Ami could increase my mania. I not only have the problem to fall asleep I also wake up like every 30 minutes. I decreased the amount of college time. I really have psychological problems to end my time in college. Because I know it is my last chance. However it is 99% certain there are no chances to go through wiith it now.