If I got one dollar for every time I am anxious as fuck and in a state of panic I would be a millionaire already

[noname223]

College is not good for my mental health. Really not. Not sure how long it will take until I am acute suicidal again.

I don't attend many courses. I will never finish my degree anyway. But my dad wanted me to continue.

I worked for a paper with AI to get ideas. But most of my formulations were my own thoughts. And most of the evaluation in the paper also were my original thoughts. But some sentences were very much inspired by AI.

I am scared as shit to be called out by the lecturer maybe in front of my peers. I panic so Hard. However, I think He is a really friendly guy. I am not sure. I have the feeling my fear might be irrational. But this anxiety exhausts me so fucking much. I have so much fear I wish He would come to my house and kill me instead. I wish He sends me a mark as soon as possible. But I will probably have to wait. I think this will ruin my weekend.

The thing is I am such a rational person and this anxiety is irrational. I am in panic all the time but most of the time this is all in my head and I overthink things way too hard. I just have to relax. I wish I was a little bit cooler. But my sleep deteriorates again and I need all these addictive sleeping Pulls.

 

[LittleMagician]

College is not good for my mental health. Really not. Not sure how long it will take until I am acute suicidal again.

I don't attend many courses. I will never finish my degree anyway. But my dad wanted me to continue.

I worked for a paper with AI to get ideas. But most of my formulations were my own thoughts. And most of the evaluation in the paper also were my original thoughts. But some sentences were very much inspired by AI.

I am scared as shit to be called out by the lecturer maybe in front of my peers. I panic so Hard. However, I think He is a really friendly guy. I am not sure. I have the feeling my fear might be irrational. But this anxiety exhausts me so fucking much. I have so much fear I wish He would come to my house and kill me instead. I wish He sends me a mark as soon as possible. But I will probably have to wait. I think this will ruin my weekend.

The thing is I am such a rational person and this anxiety is irrational. I am in panic all the time but most of the time this is all in my head and I overthink things way too hard. I just have to relax. I wish I was a little bit cooler. But my sleep deteriorates again and I need all these addictive sleeping Pulls.

I'd be elon musk bro

 

[noname223]

I'd be elon musk bro

I don't get that statement?

 

[Zanmato]

The thing is I am such a rational person and this anxiety is irrational. I am in panic all the time but most of the time this is all in my head and I overthink things way too hard. I just have to relax. I wish I was a little bit cooler. But my sleep deteriorates again and I need all these addictive sleeping Pulls.

It seems like to reading myself.

Well, I remember how it was when I was a student, I definetely understand you.
I hated that situation, and I hate it even know.

I'm sorry if I can't really help you, I just wish you the best

 

[LittleMagician]

I don't get that statement?

It
Means
Ill
Be
A
Billionaire

 

[noname223]

The anxiety gets really hard to cope with. Currently, it is really extreme. I cannot think of anything else.

 

[noname223]

I think if I get called out even in a friendly way I quit college. I cannot endure this shit much longer. It completely fucks my psyche. I gonna kill myself otherwise.