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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,206
probably somewhere in the middle. I am desperate to die but of course there is a fear of the unknown. But think about it, we didn't know anything about this world before we were born.
 
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Lifeless mindset

Lifeless mindset

See you on the other side
Oct 20, 2020
308
Seems like the majority of you find failure the most scary which is understandable. I wish you all the best of luck in whatever decision you guys may choose.
 
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clown_17

clown_17

Almost gone, it almost worked
Oct 24, 2020
288
If 10 is compete fear and 0 is an finding enjoyment in ctb I'd put myself at a 4. My suicidal ideation is high but I can't let myself go without knowing I've done everything I could. It alternates some days from a 1 to a 6. And I'm also terrified of being caught or failing. It's happened before and it's the worst.
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

he/him/his
Jul 19, 2020
1,939
I'm very scared… probably a 7 or 8. Mostly, I'm worried about the pain and the prospect of failing. I'm not as scared of dying. I only care how my death will affect others and (admittedly, very stupidly) how others will talk about me after my death.
 
Feeding Pigeons

Feeding Pigeons

Warlock
Aug 5, 2021
776
The actual concepts of taking my own life, and death in general? Not that much, maybe 2 or 3. Its all the other things that encompass suicide, like the pain you leave behind, the chance of failure and the reprecussions of that, those're the things that terrify me, thats easily 8-9.
 
lofticries

lofticries

obedear
Feb 27, 2021
1,471
honestly this depends on the day. it can go from 0 to100 real quick.
 
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deflationary

deflationary

Fussy exister. Living in the epilogue
Mar 11, 2020
529
Maybe just because it's not imminent rn but very little tbh. Maybe 2-3. I'm sure that I've gone through worse things in life than ingesting sn. If I do end up using that method.
 
FailureGirl

FailureGirl

lost in limbo...
Jul 5, 2021
133
4 I'm scared that at the last second il regret it or worse that Il survive, if I attempt and survive things will become so much worse then they are now.
 
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Shadowplay

Shadowplay

Average life non-enjoyer
Sep 11, 2021
853
9.5
 
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arie

arie

yeah idk anymore
May 21, 2021
71
Probably like a 7. I'm scared of it not working, and just suicide overall. The fear won't stop me, but I can't help but feel scared. Or at least anxious
 
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ChaseBees

Member
Sep 30, 2021
50
3.
If I was sure I wouldn't survive it, maybe a 2
 
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Jumping_realms

Jumping_realms

★☆★ ☠️★☆★
Jul 4, 2021
483
For me, it's certainly matters the method. Failure potentials are issues too. For instance:

Jumping - 8

N - 3

SN - 4
 
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existtosuffer

existtosuffer

Student
Sep 22, 2021
150
Starts at 0. Thinking about how it could fail & ending up back in a psych ward takes it to a 10.
 
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sapling

sapling

Member
Sep 25, 2021
7
4. i live with parents so the main thing im afraid of is them finding me too early. if it wasn't for that then maybe a 3.5
 
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mandyjohnuk

mandyjohnuk

Specialist
Jul 6, 2021
388
Your scale should start from zero.
Zero being not scared at all.
Zero it would have to be for me.
 
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lonerclown666

Mage
Dec 1, 2020
540
is not scary is you have a purpose in do it
 
OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
As @Jumping_realms said, it would depend on the method. The state of mind you will find yourself in is also important. Sometimes I feel numb enough that I really don't care how I go. To be relevant, here are my final options with their fear score.

Full suspension - 5
SN - 4
Partial - 3
 
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FarAcrossTheWater

FarAcrossTheWater

Experienced
Sep 4, 2020
267
None at all if it's painless. Suicide is freedom.
 
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ratpudding

ratpudding

Member
Sep 22, 2021
30
I'll go a 5, right down the middle.

Im not scared of death itself, im scared of how painful committing suicide will be and god forbid, failing.
Exactly this
 
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deadverysoon

so f****ing ready
Aug 19, 2021
216
it makes me feel better when i think about and i can kinda relax a little bit... sounds weired, but its that way...
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,006
Somewhere around a 6-7. I'm worried about failure due to being found. And I'm also worried about how my death will affect my loved ones. I know many will be devastated, but I can't keep living for the sake of others. I'm not too scared of death or what comes after
 
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Papaver

Papaver

Member
Sep 30, 2021
5
9, although it is lowering as time goes on. I'm mostly worried about the consequences of messing up my suicide, including what lies after death. If there is a hell, I most likely am going there. If there is a heaven, how can I be certain I will enjoy it? What if my loved ones are in hell? I dread reincarnation, because I dislike the thought of coming back to this world. I think the problem is that I'm an overthinker.
 
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douteiful

Member
Jul 9, 2021
9
It was probably 8 several years ago. Once I've lost hope in my future and also tried LSD and experienced how death felt like my fear went down to probably 2. I'm still a bit anxious about the idea of not existing and experiencing nothing at all.
 
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rxleep

Member
Oct 11, 2021
33
The suicide/dying part doesn't scare me at all. I am afraid of surviving at all but worse would be to survive but be incapacitated and want to die but not be able to do it again. I'm scared of the feeling of loneliness during the (hopefully just a few) minutes until I pass out.
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,006
The suicide/dying part doesn't scare me at all. I am afraid of surviving at all but worse would be to survive but be incapacitated and want to die but not be able to do it again. I'm scared of the feeling of loneliness during the (hopefully just a few) minutes until I pass out.
I'm scared of that loneliness too
 
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PDAnnie2610

Waiting for my bus.
Oct 27, 2019
701
I'm not scared of death. I'm more worried about how to die without affecting innocent bystanders
 
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DIWhyNoDO

DIWhyNoDO

Dead Inside So Why Not Be Dead Outside
Sep 28, 2021
6
When I am in ideation mode, probably a 2. It sounds like the best option in those moments, and it doesn't scare me. I've only stopped myself due to SI and knowing that it's permanent.

Otherwise, around a 7-8. I know my life on earth really, really sucks, but I fear a lot of things relating to suicide. If my soul is reincarnated into something else, I have no control of what body I will be in or if my existence will be even worse than it is now. And I also can't grapple with being nothing for god knows how many years. It is a difficult concept to wrap my head around.
I am peaceful about that because I am an atheist.
I'll go a 5, right down the middle.

Im not scared of death itself, im scared of how painful committing suicide will be and god forbid, failing.
God can't judge you. He/She doesn't live a meanless and suffering human life.
 
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cloudnone

cloudnone

So Scribble Me Out
Jan 14, 2020
55
Probably an 8. But to be entirely fair I have EXTREME anxiety to the point where a common thunderstorm is a SOLID 10.
 

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