venin.n

venin.n

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Nov 2, 2023
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0 - not depressed at all

10 - kill me now


I am 10*
 
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distropian_

distropian_

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Nov 4, 2023
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sorry that you're at the point of being 10 man, anything I can do to help?
 
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silligant

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Oct 5, 2023
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probably 8 or so, i'm failing some classes because I can't bring myself to do their assignments.

i'd like to die now but of course things can get a lot worse; there's still some things i can enjoy
 
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xxAbigailxx

xxAbigailxx

InLoveWithDeath
Feb 8, 2023
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was getting better for a while, probs becaus of my meds, but it seems like it is getting worse again... which kinda scares me... but eh... so idk a 4 (if we are talking about real, hard, paralyzing depression)

worst I ever got was between 8 and 9 I think... still could do the basics, but felt like hell and just wanted to sleep and never wake up... was lying in bed most of the time, living in my head with much efforts to forget that there is an outside world.
 
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j3n4829

j3n4829

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Nov 4, 2023
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9, i know im depressed and theres no denying it, but i have a friend that always makes me happy no matter what, i would stay alive just for her
 
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SpencerSees

SpencerSees

I used to be blind, but now i see
Feb 22, 2023
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around 9
i can't do another day of school and i feel actually physically unwell from being so upset, but i'm trying to make it to thursday when i have therapy
around 9
i can't do another day of school and i feel actually physically unwell from being so upset, but i'm trying to make it to thursday when i have therapy
 
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venin.n

venin.n

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Nov 2, 2023
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9, i know im depressed and theres no denying it, but i have a friend that always makes me happy no matter what, i would stay alive just for her
That's awesome 🤗
around 9
i can't do another day of school and i feel actually physically unwell from being so upset, but i'm trying to make it to thursday when i have therapy
around 9
i can't do another day of school and i feel actually physically unwell from being so upset, but i'm trying to make it to thursday when i have therapy
Sorry to hear that, Spencer 🫂
 
MyLifeIsANightmare

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12 - I would like to dig a grave and bury myself in it.
 
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BlackMoon

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Oct 30, 2023
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8-9 ?
I'm not even having kind of hard depressive crisis anymore, I rarely have crying outbursts, it's not like that.

I think I just entirely rationalized and assimiled the objective fact that killing myself is the best thing I can do for me. And that all the sadness I feel inside the fortress of my soul is the just the natural reaction I have facing the unhealable pain I endure without help.
 
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venin.n

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well if you think of smthin lmk, even if it's just chatting
Ty
12 - I would like to dig a grave and bury myself in it.
My kind of person
8-9 ?
I'm not even having kind of hard depressive crisis anymore, I rarely have crying outbursts, it's not like that.

I think I just entirely rationalized and assimiled the objective fact that killing myself is the best thing I can do for me. And that all the sadness I feel inside the fortress of my soul is the just the natural reaction I have facing the unhealable pain I endure without help.
Totally relate.
 
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asian.neet

asian.neet

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Oct 13, 2023
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10. But it feels like sadness for me so 🤷‍♂️
 
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Immensevoid

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Sep 10, 2023
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unfortunately 10 full
 
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Nx7

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Oct 28, 2023
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I failed in life because of my own stupid mistakes...therefore 9.5.
The 0.5 is for the failed attempts of CTB and what's holding me back for CTB.
 
アホペンギン

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Probably 8 or 9 since I'm constantly wishing I would just drop dead but I did feel some happiness today..
 
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SmollMushroom

SmollMushroom

send N pls
Sep 27, 2023
405
I'm taking antidepressants so I'd say 3 or 4.
But that doesn't mean I feel good or happy. I just don't feel depressed. I feel nothing, blank.
Also depression is just the tip of the iceberg of my many issues...
 
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ashtroboy79

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Nov 4, 2023
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9.5 even with new medication, I'm struggling with work and sleep and family and loneliness and winter isn't helping
 
sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
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0 - not depressed at all

10 - kill me now


I am 10*
I'm not sure, probably 10 as well. I think I have existential depression. I just feel like life is so boring and meaningless. I don't see the point in living. I'd rather die honestly.
 
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NocturnILL

NocturnILL

She will become the wind…
Sep 11, 2023
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10
Like literally kill me now
 
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Ammended

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Oct 29, 2023
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8-9 ?
I'm not even having kind of hard depressive crisis anymore, I rarely have crying outbursts, it's not like that.

I think I just entirely rationalized and assimiled the objective fact that killing myself is the best thing I can do for me. And that all the sadness I feel inside the fortress of my soul is the just the natural reaction I have facing the unhealable pain I endure without help.
So much this. Thank you for being able to articulate this.
 
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