Method OK, Kiddos. It's going to be Thursday

[nonialabaster]

I'm going to CTB sometime Thursday, either late afternoon or that evening. I'm timing my stuff, just right. The walls are closing in and there's no end in sight, except the one I have in my dresser drawer. I'm drinking some wine today, will dry out tomorrow, put my trash and recycling on the curb, send my instructions to my only local friend, etc. I'm hoping she'll take care of my wonderful KaliKat, or at least find a home for her. I feel selfish for wanting Kali here with me, in my final days.

I'll be here for a couple of more days.

I don't know if I'll post a Goodbye thread. This is very hard. I have encountered some wonderful people here. Especially one beautiful lady, and she knows who she is. Thank you, my darlin' one! I so love talking to you, as you know.

 

[NoHorizon]

I've not interacted with you as I haven't really been posting and trying to limit my time on here, but I've loved reading your posts. I'm sad to hear that this is the end for you, but I hope you have a peaceful exit. Thanks for bringing your humour and kindness here.

 

[orca87]

I've read about your heartbreaking story, I had to laugh when I read your little rants about toxic positivity, and I feel the pain of losing the meaning of your life. I am sorry that life has taken you to this point.

Even if we haven't talked directly, I wish you all the best for Thursday. May you find a peaceful relief from all the pain.

 

[thouxan]

I'm going to CTB sometime Thursday, either late afternoon or that evening. I'm timing my stuff, just right. The walls are closing in and there's no end in sight, except the one I have in my dresser drawer. I'm drinking some wine today, will dry out tomorrow, put my trash and recycling on the curb, send my instructions to my only local friend, etc. I'm hoping she'll take care of my wonderful KaliKat, or at least find a home for her. I feel selfish for wanting Kali here with me, in my final days.

I'll be here for a couple of more days.

I don't know if I'll post a Goodbye thread. This is very hard. I have encountered some wonderful people here. Especially one beautiful lady, and she knows who she is. Thank you, my darlin' one! I so love talking to you, as you know.

What is your method? SN? If so can you post what other meds you will take along with it?

From this post you seem like a good person, I wish you luck and I hope you find peace <3 sounds like you have everything figured out

 

[RichardFirst]

Best of luck on the journey ahead. May you find peace.

 

[Letgo]

I am new here but i hope you have peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Best wishes, I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[nonialabaster]

I've not interacted with you as I haven't really been posting and trying to limit my time on here, but I've loved reading your posts. I'm sad to hear that this is the end for you, but I hope you have a peaceful exit. Thanks for bringing your humour and kindness here.

You are kind, and I'm glad you've enjoyed my posts. I try to he helpful (I'm cursed with that personality! But I can't help it.) And, I can't help but be a little funny. I even made the funeral home crack up, while I was picking up my husband's ashes. My friend was weeping, and I was making a joke. Oh, well, it got me through that horrible experience.

 

[leavingsoon99]

Farewell. I hope you succeed peacefully, no matter your choice. May you find peace, painlessness and power.

 

[nonialabaster]

What is your method? SN? If so can you post what other meds you will take along with it?

From this post you seem like a good person, I wish you luck and I hope you find peace <3 sounds like you have everything figured out

Not comfortable sharing on the forum. But, thank you, for your kind words. Seriously. I need all I can get, at this point.

 

[nonialabaster]

Not comfortable sharing on the forum. But, thank you, for your kind words. Seriously. I need all I can get, at this point.

I might be subjecting you all to a music dump, over the next two days. Hope you are ready for a lot of Punk, a lot of Gen-X Indie stuff, and a little bit of folk and old- C&W.

 

[Rogue Proxy]

Hope KaliKat gets the best love and care, your friend doesn't fuck you over (after receiving your instructions), and the nasty porcine hominids stay in their styes and out of your way!

 

[LateForTheBus]

Wishing you a swift and peaceful journey. I have so enjoyed getting to know you. I'm glad you will get to be with Mark and Kristen again soon. Thank you for injecting love and humor into my life in these last days. You will be missed.

 

[Aisley]

Hate to see someone so grounded leave us. You remind me of someone I used to have in my life. Safe travels, however, and I look forward to all the dumps you have to give.

 

[nonialabaster]

Hope KaliKat gets the best love and care, your friend doesn't fuck you over (after receiving your instructions), and the nasty porcine hominids stay in their styes and out of your way!

Fuck those pigs! That's what got me 5 years deferred-adjudication-probation in 1996. I called one of them a pig and a fascist, and there I was, sitting in a Texas jail. Boy, was my probation officer pissed when I completed it. Bwahaha! My beloved wrote a song about that! It was pretty funny.

Hate to see someone so grounded leave us. You remind me of someone I used to have in my life. Safe travels, however, and I look forward to all the dumps you have to give.

Well, get ready, baby. They're coming soon!

 

[ExistHarm]

take it easy on the ride home

 

[nonialabaster]

Hate to see someone so grounded leave us. You remind me of someone I used to have in my life. Safe travels, however, and I look forward to all the dumps you have to give.

Here's the first music dump It's Ween. I hope it works.

 

[qwerty1969]

Good luck I hope you find peace

 

[nonialabaster]

Good luck I hope you find peace

I hope so, too. Thank you.

 

[roadtogo]

I've been following your story and I just want to say my heart goes out to you. I wish you all the best and look forward to your music dumps.

 

[Scacie]

Goodbye. It's been great seeing you here. Wishing you a swift and peaceful journey back. See you on the other side

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I've read a few of your posts but don't really know your story, I'm sorry for whatever has led to this decision. You seem very mature and I know you care a lot about others on here so I know people will really miss your posts. If there's even a tiny chance you can stick around I hope you do, if not I respect your decision and wish you peace

 

[nonialabaster]

Here is the next one. Ladies and Gentlemen, May I introduce, Dozer?

I'm sorry if this isn't working. I've become quite tearful in the last few hours. I called my dad, I don't know why, but he rejected my call. So it's just me and KaliKat. All I have is that sweet baby. My dad can die in his fucking ranch. Fuck people. Goddamn it!

 

[Rogue Proxy]

Fuck those pigs! That's what got me 5 years deferred-adjudication-probation in 1996. I called one of them a pig and a fascist, and there I was, sitting in a Texas jail. Boy, was my probation officer pissed when I completed it. Bwahaha! My beloved wrote a song about that! It was pretty funny.

Care to share the lyrics of that song?

 

[nonialabaster]

Dozer is a Swedish Stoner Rock band. There's a whole genre. Look it up. You will not be disappointed!

Care to share the lyrics of that song?

I'll get back to you with that. Mark used Woody Guthrie's "Pretty Boy Floyd" and changed a bunch of the lyrics. Same melody, but lyrics changed to fit what happened to me. It was really funny!

Dozer is a Swedish Stoner Rock band. There's a whole genre. Look it up. You will not be disappointed!

I'll get back to you with that. Mark used Woody Guthrie's "Pretty Boy Floyd" and changed a bunch of the lyrics. Same melody, but lyrics changed to fit what happened to me. It was really funny!

You'll have to listen to the song. Mark changed words to" and she kicked that deputy's shins!" among others. I'm sorry, it's still really hard for me to hear Mark's voice, even though it's been almost a year since he died here. I still dream that he's at work, late, and I can't manage to call him.

 

[nonialabaster]

Here is the next one. Ladies and Gentlemen, May I introduce, Dozer?

I'm sorry if this isn't working. I've become quite tearful in the last few hours. I called my dad, I don't know why, but he rejected my call. So it's just me and KaliKat. All I have is that sweet baby. My dad can die in his fucking ranch. Fuck people. Goddamn it!

This is so hard. Fuck! Even though I've given myself two days. I know I can do it, but, my KaliKat is making it hard. And, fuck my sticky keyboard!

This is so hard. Fuck! Even though I've given myself two days. I know I can do it, but, my KaliKat is making it hard. And, fuck my sticky keyboard!

I can't stop crying. When you get to this point, I guess that's where you go. You get really sad, and you miss everything.

 

[ChildrensITV]

Hi, we've spoken a little in DMs. I really felt for your situation. Everyone has the right to CTB when they want but your story seemed like one of the ones where I can understand you doing it. It seems commensurate with your situation. If I remember your situation correctly!

Have you written a note? Will you go somewhere else so that family don't find you? We care! Good luck if we don't speak before then. Remember, you can always postpone!

 

[nonialabaster]

I'm going to listen to Bob Dylan, finish my wine and go cuddle Kali in our bed, and enjoy her sweet little kittie feets on my cheeks, for one of the last nights we have, together.

Hi, we've spoken a little in DMs. I really felt for your situation. Everyone has the right to CTB when they want but your story seemed like one of the ones where I can understand you doing it. It seems commensurate with your situation. If I remember your situation correctly!

Have you written a note? Will you go somewhere else so that family don't find you? We care! Good luck if we don't speak before then. Remember, you can always postpone!

Yes. I have contact info there, but, not any kind of Grand Statement.

I'm going to listen to Bob Dylan, finish my wine and go cuddle Kali in our bed, and enjoy her sweet little kittie feets on my cheeks, for one of the last nights we have, together.

Yes. I have contact info there, but, not any kind of Grand Statement.

I'll be doing it at home.

 

[NotWiseEnough]

i've never interacted with you but i've seen you around these forums and i've been following your story. i hope you can find the peace that you seek <3

 

[cloverhiding]

Be kind to yourself through this journey