PaxAmerica

PaxAmerica

Just Passing
Apr 15, 2021
202
I think if there was a way that guaranteed CTB and was painless I would do it right now. I am at 10 on the scale and were it not for fear of CTBing and of hurting loved ones I would have done it. A quick painless death would not prevent pain to loved ones of course.

How do others feel?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,316
Yes, I think so. I have been on this earth for far too long. Non existence is what I want, freedom from the burden of existence.
 
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BloodyNobody

BloodyNobody

AshIsOurPurestForm✨
May 25, 2021
62
Absolutely, if only :(
 
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ClosetGoth

ClosetGoth

Member
Nov 23, 2020
17
Absolutely. I'm done with life but am too cowardly to get out now. Today I saw some possibilities
 
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Roadkill

Experienced
Dec 25, 2018
247
Yes, I would do it this very second
 
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ClosetGoth

ClosetGoth

Member
Nov 23, 2020
17
And me. Right now
 
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Fehler

Fehler

...
Oct 12, 2020
455
If there was the option that looked like an accident, then yes. But not for now (as long as I have SN in hand).
 
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BrokenLine

Experienced
Jul 13, 2019
255
Yes, After a lifetime of shit the people it may hurt are the cause of most of it.
 
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puppet_nihilist

puppet_nihilist

cogito, ergo sum
Jan 8, 2021
227
Instantly, without second thoughts, without any hesitation. I would do it given the guarantee that it'll kill me.
 
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GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
5,739
Yeah boiiii
 
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narval

narval

Enlightened
Jan 22, 2020
1,188
If it's fast and absolutely lethal and painless? yes of course. Without doubt.
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,475
Yes. Preferably not through suicide.
 
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GoneAndForgotten

GoneAndForgotten

Unsure about everything
Apr 2, 2021
82
Absolutely, I'm just waiting for my sn to arrive and then I'm gone, if I had the opportunity I'd take it right this second
 
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CiproKilledMe

CiproKilledMe

Experienced
Mar 23, 2021
243
God yes. I wish I'd have researched & planned ahead better in order to acquire myself a nitrogen tank. I wouldn't be afraid of that method in the least (unlike what I'm gonna have to do).
 
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sadbadpsychogirl

sadbadpsychogirl

sonofabitch
May 29, 2020
725
no there are certain things i'm waiting for. after that comes through i'm def good to go
 
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PaxAmerica

PaxAmerica

Just Passing
Apr 15, 2021
202
God yes. I wish I'd have researched & planned ahead better in order to acquire myself a nitrogen tank. I wouldn't be afraid of that method in the least (unlike what I'm gonna have to do).
What have you got planned?
 
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Promortalist_

Promortalist_

Celebrate Death Mourn Life
Jul 5, 2021
74
yes, lol in a heartbeat. This society is too much for me to handle.
 
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cantseethelight

Member
Jul 6, 2021
71
Yes without doubt. Or at the very least if keep it my pocket so I knew I could go at any moment.
 
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logan

logan

Warlock
May 20, 2021
705
Yes, just go to sleep peacefully and not wake up again - I'd be there in a heartbeat!
 
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PaxAmerica

PaxAmerica

Just Passing
Apr 15, 2021
202
Soemone hurt me so badly. A professional I trusted. I feel I could kill myself right now. Its just so hard to actually do.
 
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peacefulhorizons

peacefulhorizons

Wizard
Dec 31, 2019
676
Absolutely. Every day is a painful existence.
 
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cantseethelight

Member
Jul 6, 2021
71
Soemone hurt me so badly. A professional I trusted. I feel I could kill myself right now. Its just so hard to actually do.
I'm super sorry to hear that, they had no right to abuse their power and they should pay for it.
Don't let them take your light away.
Are you able to atleast report it or make it known to some level of authority? it may give you some reprieve or possibly stop them from doing it again.
 
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PaxAmerica

PaxAmerica

Just Passing
Apr 15, 2021
202
I'm super sorry to hear that, they had no right to abuse their power and they should pay for it.
Don't let them take your light away.
Are you able to atleast report it or make it known to some level of authority? it may give you some reprieve or possibly stop them from doing it again.
Did all i could but they were a solicitor, gave bad advize, accessed , my email and deleted their mistake. I lost loads and no one is going to believe me. Its like a movie where things just went wrong in the perfect order. I have no way to put it right. Thats why I have to go.
Thanx anyway. Anyone else got a response as I am really curious
 
logan

logan

Warlock
May 20, 2021
705
Did all i could but they were a solicitor, gave bad advize, accessed , my email and deleted their mistake. I lost loads and no one is going to believe me. Its like a movie where things just went wrong in the perfect order. I have no way to put it right. Thats why I have to go.
Thanx anyway. Anyone else got a response as I am really curious
I understand your pain.

But that is no reason to end your life ...
 
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PaxAmerica

PaxAmerica

Just Passing
Apr 15, 2021
202
I understand your pain.

But that is no reason to end your life
I look back at events. How I was vulnerable and trusted the lawyer to act in our interest. He didnt know the law and cost us a lot. I actually thanked him for his work at the time unaware he had been making up records and deleting my emails. I will never be able to prove it. I ruminate on each moment every day.
 
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logan

logan

Warlock
May 20, 2021
705
I look back at events. How I was vulnerable and trusted the lawyer to act in our interest. He didnt know the law and cost us a lot. I actually thanked him for his work at the time unaware he had been making up records and deleting my emails. I will never be able to prove it. I ruminate on each moment every day.
I understand that.
But please don't throw your life away because of it.
In a few years, you will certainly still think about it, but you won't want to take your life because of it.
 
L

Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,136
Yes, absolutely, without thinking. I'm only stuck because of lack of method.
 
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PaxAmerica

PaxAmerica

Just Passing
Apr 15, 2021
202
I understand that.
But please don't throw your life away because of it.
In a few years, you will certainly still think about it, but you won't want to take your life because of it.
Thanx Logan. But the whole episode has drained me emotionally. I am a very sensitive person by nature and this betrayal just hit me too hard. No matter what I do my mind just replays all the events.
 
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