Venting ODing as a cry for help?

[interna]

im at my limit!!!!
i can't be hospitalized it's just gonna fuck me up further but i can't take my pain not being seen anymore. i need them to know im seriously doing bad
I can't keep being all bark no bite. I need to die, but I can't yet. so maybe overdosing with paracetamol is the move? i can just call 911 and report myself.
idk idk idk
sorry I'm not doing too good right now

 

[BlueMist96]

I think you should tell someone how you are feeling instead. An OD will most likely give you long lasting health issues. I hope you get the help you need

 

[SoverignDreamer97]

You can but...

1. "You cannot please everyone; control the things you can control." ~Suncha Ferreira (Victus Group)/Mark 8:36, Matthew 13:12

2. The grass withers, the flowers fade, because the breath of the Lord blows upon it; surely the people are grass.
The grass withers, the flowers fade, but the word of our God stands forever. (Isaiah 40:7-8)

3. The world hates liabilities, and would rather they not exist, as much as the rules dictate that all life is inherently valuable. (Proverbs 25:17)

• Even in a community of liabilities, there is no place for a liability. (John 15:18)

Therefore, as much as I desire to live, and that a world without me would be awfully dull and grey, this isn't up to me; if I die, I die; though my father, mother, and the whole world forsake me, the Lord will bring me up. (Esther 4:11, Psalm 27:10)

 

[paranoias64]

i dont think ODing without the intention to ctb is the right move either. it would have long lasting consequences not just on ur health, but on ur job, insurance, bank account, relationships, etc, etc. i hope u get the help/attention u need! there's ppl out there who want to listen and help <3

 

[Quietist]

I think you should tell someone how you are feeling instead. An OD will most likely give you long lasting health issues. I hope you get the help you need

Yes this. Paracetamol is basically Tylenol. It wont kill you. You could end up with organ issues that make your circumstances even worse.

And with hospital records being online and different healthcare professionals being able to view your history, you don't want the stigma/problem of being a suicide risk.

It just complicates shit.

 

[iCryInMySecretSpot]

dont OD. nothing you have access to OTC can kill you usually, but you will go through tremendous unspeakable pain.

 

[byec560]

Do you think the people in your life care about you? If they do, then you don't need to OD. If they don't, then why would they care if you OD? Seems like a pointless risk to me.

 

[ImInPain]

im at my limit!!!!
i can't be hospitalized it's just gonna fuck me up further but i can't take my pain not being seen anymore. i need them to know im seriously doing bad
I can't keep being all bark no bite. I need to die, but I can't yet. so maybe overdosing with paracetamol is the move? i can just call 911 and report myself.
idk idk idk
sorry I'm not doing too good right now

As others said, ODing can lead to long lasting consequences that aren't worth it. I think, like you said, you should call 911 or go to a hospital and just say that you are planning to take your life unless you get immediate help.

Since reporting yourself means that you have time before you get taken involuntarily, try researching mental facilities near you and see which ones would be best. I've been to a good psych ward that helped immensely, but there are really bad ones too that you have to look out for (thankfully I haven't been in the hellish ones at least). There are also some that just kind of keep you there for protocol and do nothing, so please do some research since you aren't being reported against your will.

Also, if you go to the ER or call 911 without an attempt, make sure you make it clear that you will absolutely attempt if you are not helped. edit: I hope this will not be the case, but I have heard of at least one instance where someone with SI went to the ER but they weren't taken seriously and discharged, so with the small chance that you get some asshole provider, please make sure you prioritize yourself and advocate for your safety.

Sorry about what you're going through. We're all here for you. Much love and good luck.