I can't cope with what is happening to me physically and feel so afraid. I lie on the sofa crying all day with every sensory nerve being destroyed through my face and head now.
I have very strong SI as I have a son I adore and don't want to leave. Because I don't ever want to leave him I will never overcome the SI by doing hanging or something horrible like that. The only method I feel I can cope with is OD.
People do succeed with this as I hear it on the news etc. How do these people succeed with OD. I have access to alot of medicines - antiemetics, tramadol, morphine ( oramorph). I'm sure I could access sleeping pills if I asked. I also have diazepam although not alot. I cannot tolerate the thought I have nothing and fear I will run in front of a car in severe distress or a train or something awful I don't want those left behind having to deal with.
I'm so devastated and want to scream. I would not be doing this if I had support from the medical profession. They refuse to acknowledged the worst symptoms which make me suicidal. Despite a multitude of conditions. I hate this existence
I have very strong SI as I have a son I adore and don't want to leave. Because I don't ever want to leave him I will never overcome the SI by doing hanging or something horrible like that. The only method I feel I can cope with is OD.
People do succeed with this as I hear it on the news etc. How do these people succeed with OD. I have access to alot of medicines - antiemetics, tramadol, morphine ( oramorph). I'm sure I could access sleeping pills if I asked. I also have diazepam although not alot. I cannot tolerate the thought I have nothing and fear I will run in front of a car in severe distress or a train or something awful I don't want those left behind having to deal with.
I'm so devastated and want to scream. I would not be doing this if I had support from the medical profession. They refuse to acknowledged the worst symptoms which make me suicidal. Despite a multitude of conditions. I hate this existence
