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Kennish

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Aug 17, 2021
379
I'm never getting out of my OCD. Can't buy clothes. Nothing fits me. I don't have a life anymore. My whole body is wrong. And what is the deal about pants only being made now with stretch? It's exhausting. I need to CTB soon to get out of this nightmare. I wish I had the N right now. My life is completely over. I should have done something about it when I was 13. Should have called my aunt to get help in my teens. Now it's too late. My whole life is a mess.
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
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My body is wrong too. I'm so sorry you're dealing with OCD. Try some OCD meditation videos. They have helpt me a little.
 
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Kennish

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Aug 17, 2021
379
My body is wrong too. I'm so sorry you're dealing with OCD. Try some OCD meditation videos. They have helpt me a little.
My life is a complete mess now! After being an addict for so many years and getting out, never buying clothes because I just was at home using. Nothing fits me. My whole body is wrong. I hate myself. And either I'm cold or hot. I can't buy any clothes and I hate my body. I hate myself. I just want out, now! I'm saving up for N but I'm fucking desperate now. I want out. People around me say I should keep fighting but I can't. I have 2 kids. One of them I don't see. And the other is only 10 months old. I should never have had kids. But I can't live for them. My life is useless. I have so much anxiety now. I can't live for nobody. I want out. I want peace. I want to rest. I want out.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. Life is just so horrible. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,148
I have severe ocd to. I want out to but am staying alive for my mom so I know how you feel
 
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Depressed_Kettle

Experienced
Apr 25, 2021
253
OCD sucks.
 
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sorryforthat

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Oct 22, 2021
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is OCD hereditary?
 
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Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
is OCD hereditary?
Diabetes is hereditary, autoimmun diseases is hereditary, your individual risk for be being fat is hereditary, you risk for nearsightedness is hereditary

its genetic interacting with outworld
 
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Depressed_Kettle

Experienced
Apr 25, 2021
253
is OCD hereditary?
Partly but also environment based.

You could have no genetics predisposing you for OCD but due to a traumatic and bad environment develop OCD. The reverse is also possible.
 
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rs929

Mage
Dec 18, 2020
580
I have OCD too. I find it bearable with a good treatment. ERP helps and meds too
 
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Kennish

Specialist
Aug 17, 2021
379
Partly but also environment based.

You could have no genetics predisposing you for OCD but due to a traumatic and bad environment develop OCD. The reverse is also possible.
Yes. It is definitely my environment at childhood and teens that made my OCD. I have OCD regarding my body and clothes. Nothing feels comfortable to me. Have so much difficulties buying clothes and wearing them. It has destroyed my life. My life is now a mess. It didn't work doing drugs a long time either. You say it is reversible. If it is with me it would be a miracle. Just started new anti-depressants/OCD medicine and it would be a miracle if it worked. I'm thinking about CTB every moment of the hour now.

Also. I don't understand my condition. I see everybody else wearing clothes and being in their body and feeling fine. Why can't I? I don't get it. I don't understand it. And it's annoying. It causes anxiety and depression. And I've been drugging myself since teens. I should been removed from my parents and lived with other family members instead. Then I'm sure I wouldn't have ended here now.

Instead I just smoked my teens away in my room. With my parents not interfering. I blame them alot, but they say they didn't know about it. Yeah right.

If this new medicine work it would be a miracle. But I really don't have any hope it will. I don't like being in this body. And I don't understand my condition.
Yes. It is definitely my environment at childhood and teens that made my OCD. I have OCD regarding my body and clothes. Nothing feels comfortable to me. Have so much difficulties buying clothes and wearing them. It has destroyed my life. My life is now a mess. It didn't work doing drugs a long time either. You say it is reversible. If it is with me it would be a miracle. Just started new anti-depressants/OCD medicine and it would be a miracle if it worked. I'm thinking about CTB every moment of the hour now.

Also. I don't understand my condition. I see everybody else wearing clothes and being in their body and feeling fine. Why can't I? I don't get it. I don't understand it. And it's annoying. It causes anxiety and depression. And I've been drugging myself since teens. I should been removed from my parents and lived with other family members instead. Then I'm sure I wouldn't have ended here now.

Instead I just smoked my teens away in my room. With my parents not interfering. I blame them alot, but they say they didn't know about it. Yeah right.

If this new medicine work it would be a miracle. But I really don't have any hope it will. I don't like being in this body. And I don't understand my condition.
Some say that OCD reminds of PTSD. Being in a traumatic time of period and couldn't get out of it, so OCD is developed to cope with the trauma
 
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finalexit

Member
Jan 24, 2021
84
I feel ya. OCD is hell. I'm constantly uncomfortable in clothes as well, and in my own skin
 
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Kennish

Specialist
Aug 17, 2021
379
I feel ya. OCD is hell. I'm constantly uncomfortable in clothes as well, and in my own skin
Are you? I thought it was only me. I hate it. Every minute, every hour.
 
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finalexit

Member
Jan 24, 2021
84
Yeah pretty sure I've always been this way, going back to early childhood. Is clothing your main OCD obsession?
 
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Kennish

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Aug 17, 2021
379
Yeah pretty sure I've always been this way, going back to early childhood. Is clothing your main OCD obsession?
My OCD is regarding clothes and my body yes. I don't feel home in this body. I don't feel safe and comfortable. And it makes me anxious and depressed.

Its like my body is build wrong. Started new anti-depressants/OCD medicine and it would be a miracle if it works.

I've come to a place where I no longer can live life. And it hurts to see others just wake up in the morning and living their life. Going to work and enjoying their free time. I'm just anxious, depressed and constantly uncomfortable.
 
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finalexit

Member
Jan 24, 2021
84
Sorry to hear. I feel the same way all the time. The body an anxiety and discomfort prison. No relief. I've tried various medications over the years as well but no success.
 
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supermario

Experienced
Oct 21, 2021
233
I have OCD and it is literally eating up my life inside and out.

Have you tried all the drugs out there for OCD? Lexapro and Zoloft worked REALLY well for me until a traumatic event pushed me back to hell. But they gave me 15 years of happiness. The point is, all drugs work differently on different people, so you need to exhaust all of them before giving up.
 
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Kennish

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Aug 17, 2021
379
I have OCD and it is literally eating up my life inside and out.

Have you tried all the drugs out there for OCD? Lexapro and Zoloft worked REALLY well for me until a traumatic event pushed me back to hell. But they gave me 15 years of happiness. The point is, all drugs work differently on different people, so you need to exhaust all of them before giving up.
I am on something new now, called Venlafaxine
 
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