It's not like things are overwhelmingly hard to do or that there is no place for a median where you can live off the grid on a decent job that doesn't require 50 phd's; but not caring about anything life has to offer just makes everything so hard to do.
Also it's not like I was born totally careless but once I realised how shitty our lives are and how shitty society is, I actively chose not to have any drive and not to give into this rat race. You could say it is my fault but it's not really a choice if you have a heart, I guess this is the path of someone who is more emotional and empathetic. For extroverted people that have little to no empathy, THIS IS A CHOICE, a choice that will obviously result them in playing the rat race and trampling over everyone else because why would they care? For introverted empathetic people like me, it's also a choice, a choice that I will obviously not participate in a meatgrinder because I do not want to trample over others.
The system was designed by evil for evil. It's shit and I can't get any motivation or will or passion or anything to participate in it, no amount of drugs, pills or gods will change this. So, what to do? What would you say to be the answer to this BS? Form a community? It won't erase the shittiness that is going on outside of it, people will still suffer. Idk, I still believe that death might be the only way out, it might be a bit selfish since I could help people but it hurts too much to be alive, and what a dream it was when I was a child, who could have guessed that what I viewed as beautiful and with limitless potential back then would end up being a sour pile of goop.
Also it's not like I was born totally careless but once I realised how shitty our lives are and how shitty society is, I actively chose not to have any drive and not to give into this rat race. You could say it is my fault but it's not really a choice if you have a heart, I guess this is the path of someone who is more emotional and empathetic. For extroverted people that have little to no empathy, THIS IS A CHOICE, a choice that will obviously result them in playing the rat race and trampling over everyone else because why would they care? For introverted empathetic people like me, it's also a choice, a choice that I will obviously not participate in a meatgrinder because I do not want to trample over others.
The system was designed by evil for evil. It's shit and I can't get any motivation or will or passion or anything to participate in it, no amount of drugs, pills or gods will change this. So, what to do? What would you say to be the answer to this BS? Form a community? It won't erase the shittiness that is going on outside of it, people will still suffer. Idk, I still believe that death might be the only way out, it might be a bit selfish since I could help people but it hurts too much to be alive, and what a dream it was when I was a child, who could have guessed that what I viewed as beautiful and with limitless potential back then would end up being a sour pile of goop.
