NyQuil and Water

[painaway]

NyQuil and water. I'm convinced that's all I need. Down a few bottles, and go for a nap in the tub.
I know that's stupid, and I wouldn't try. I'd survive, and then it's hospitalization and pity. An old plan was to swim as far out on the beach as I could after drinking NyQuil and taking sleeping pills. I'm more inclined to think that might work, but, again, I won't be trying it. I missed my chance. I have a dependent, now. She's the only reason I'm still trying to live. I know I'll let her down, but I won't let someone else get her. My family is worse than I will be.

Why are people so cruel? I guess, I am, too. I want to be religious again. Maybe I'll feel better. I just can't start. At least, I feel that way.

My therapist was definitely thinking of calling the popo on me tonight, lol. I'm still glad I texted her, though. I'm not a threat to myself or anyone else. I'll sit here and sob. That's all I'll do.

Do you think being evil is easier? No empathy. No feeling of responsibility. I think it is. I can't even force myself to wish for it, though. I just wish I could turn off the damaged parts of my brain and function like a well-programmed robot.

 

[maniac116]

OTC drugs have less than 6% chance overall of success.
Don't bother. That's hard on your body as well.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

OTC drugs have less than 6% chance overall of success.
Don't bother. That's hard on your body as well.

echoing this. I know you acknowledged it but it can be good to be reminded. you'll feel like shit and will more than likely live.

 

[unknown1918]

You're just going to trip balls and throw up

 

[painaway]

You're just going to trip balls and throw up

Sounds like a fun time

OTC drugs have less than 6% chance overall of success.
Don't bother. That's hard on your body as well.

True. The plan was to go unconscious and drown, but people would probably report a person going into the water holding cough syrup and/or alcohol

 

[CatLvr]

I am still here because of family (my kids are now grown and have families of their own) but I stayed for the same reasons you are -- I didn't want my crazy family getting their claws into my kids.

Was it hard?? God, yes. Do I regret staying around?? Absolutely not. And like you, I sobbed myself to sleep more nights than I care to remember. My heart goes out to you.

 

[Jack_Nimble]

Very unlikely to die. Many people drink OTC cough syrup like NyQuil to get high. I used to do it alot as a teenager. I knew several people who drank a few bottles at a time and didn't die. Granted they had a tolerance. But still....I think you'd be unlikely to die. It's probably be quite a terrorizing feeling having that much without tolerance.