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MicropBaldCurrycel

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@Pain In The Ass you have totally high jacked this post. @MicropBaldCurrycel I'm sorry your post has been overtaking by someone needing to argue their point at any lengths.
yes thats why i left and didnt reply but i have read everyones good replies thank u all but this guy really bothered me and i didnt wana deal with it anymore .
I think folks aren't saying you're wrong, they're saying your delivery sucks. Of course people who suffer from mood disorders tend to globalize, distort, catastrophize—it's part of the deal, and once mood has been chemically stabilized, that's what treatment goes after with things like CBT, and DBT.

It's also true that thought distortions can be annoying as fuck to folks on the outside looking in. But so what? Why vent your frustration? Surely to Christ you can appreciate it doesn't ever do any good? No one's going to have an epiphany because you barked at them, so why bother?
but it is real , i have noticed it... i linked a video where the guy even talks about it and why he doesnt like going out and doing certain jobs anyway this pain in the ass guy totally ruined my whole thread and hijacked it just to impose his views , thanks to the people who actually watched the videos and took time to understand but i didnt wana reply cause that guy ruined everything, i came here for support and to talk about my experience, not do be told its all in my head or i dont know what im talking about when im the one experiencing it.
I totally get the bulge thing. It's not a lack of a bulge, it's there being a certain kind of bulge that is incredibly telling about what's going on down there, and it's very easy to notice. It looks bad, and I definitely get your distress. And yeah, your condition really sucks. People will judge you for it which is just a horrible thing that you can't escape from. It's certainly a good reason to be unhappy and would inspire me to withdraw even more from the world than I already am. There may be ways to conceal it, which sadly doesn't fix the issue, but it's the most that can apparently be done. I don't know how though.
yes thank u , its why i have withdrawn and even the guy in the video he shows it and explains.

i am thinking of ways of concealing it and theres a few options but theres some downsides to that so im figuring out the logistics.
I watched the video, I feel like I learned something today. I never even knew this was a thing. I've heard men talk about having a micro penis but just thought they meant 'on the small side' or something. And I also never considered how this must affect a man's confidence, sense of masculinity, sex life, social life and so on. Never considered that a man would only do certain types of jobs because of it, like the guy in the video. I think he may have been traumatically bullied in the past to make him so self conscious.
thank you for watching the video and taking the time to understand the problem, it affects our lives in many ways .
I was once in a long distance relationship with a girl with a condition called vaginismus (basically she cannot have penetrative sex because it's very painful and uncomfortable) so to her my size was irrelevant, she did have sexual desires but sex would have taken different ways that don't even require a penis at all (we never met in person before we broke up, nonetheless point is there's all kinds of people), I have a friend who is demi/asexual and sex is a minimal part of a relationship to her, there's such cases.
i would love to find a girlfriend like these but how do i find them?
I'm wondering, there is no surgery available to do something about it?
yes but its like 50k usd and i live in a third world country so i dont even know if il make that much in my lifetime.
It's easy for others to dismiss your pain; the words "it's in your head" should be banned from this site. Imo, that message is one of the worst things someone could hear, especially when they're opening up and expressing what they're dealing/struggling with. Those words could be ignorantly hurled at anyone no matter the circumstances, and I'm sure many on this forum (myself certainly included) have been hurt and offended by that very message in their own situations. You don't deserve that, and you have nothing to prove.
thank you so much, and you are so right. No one here should be invalidated, we all came here for support and not to be imposed upon or chastised.

Also, out of curiosity. (You don't have to answer) You would be dating women?
yes i do want to , and thank you for the reply. you take care too.
 
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but it is real , i have noticed it... i linked a video where the guy even talks about it and why he doesnt like going out and doing certain jobs anyway this pain in the ass guy totally ruined my whole thread and hijacked it just to impose his views , thanks to the people who actually watched the videos and took time to understand but i didnt wana reply cause that guy ruined everything, i came here for support and to talk about my experience, not do be told its all in my head or i dont know what im talking about when im the one experiencing it.
I believe you, and don't think it's all in your head. And it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, it's your experience. True story (caution, tmi)—I was never circumcised, in an era where everyone was. When I was about ten we were changing at a friend's to go swimming—and I can still see it in my mind's eye—my friend pointed and said "what the hell is wrong with you?" For decades I was terrified girls would laugh at me, even after I knew that it was nothing to even think about. I'd even warn them, in the beginning. Not the same thing, I know, but I can relate to what you're feeling.

I think what the kinder folks are saying is that they get it's a thing, but probably not as bad a thing as you think. The law of averages says that's true. Which doesn't necessarily help when you're in pain.
 
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WorthlessTrash

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Hi OP, I'm so sorry that you are struggling through this life with your condition. Your experience and your feelings are 100% valid. Lack of connection to other people, and the pain of feeling physically/socially condemned for something that you have zero control over, is excruciating.

You mentioned in the first post that this condition inhibits you from having a romantic relationship or finding love. I want you to know that love comes in a lot of forms. There are ace/aro relationships that many people find deep and enjoyable and it might be worth exploring. I am not here to tell you how to live your life though, and I hope you find peace however you choose.
The issue is that most people want a romantic and sexual relationships. What you are suggesting is basic friendships, but if that were enough for the OP, he wouldn't be having the issue in his first post.

Friends are a dime a dozen and can and will drift away. With a romantic parter, you have an SO and a best friend in one.
 
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Niko66

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i am thinking of ways of concealing it and theres a few options but theres some downsides to that so im figuring out the logistics.
I would understand why you wouldn't want to wear such a thing but just in case you didn't know of them, for the bulge in public concern there's items designed for trans men to help them with gender dysphoria to imitate the shape of male genitals.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

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yes i do want to , and thank you for the reply. you take care too.
Just saying hi to see how you are? I skipped over a lot of posts, can't deal with all of the arguments.
I'm sorry you can't afford surgery. Was that for penis enlargement or removal?
I still think the best option is to not have your penis removed and hope you can find someone who loves you for who you are. Even if you could have it removed you would still need to find a lesbian that is ok with the surgery.
 
PinkSakura

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Feb 8, 2021
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Nobody is watching your crotch on the street, life doesn't work like that lol. And even if by the off chance that somebody is watching crotches, every man has a small penis when he doesn't have an erection. Someone would need x-ray vision + be psychic to also know what your penis looks like with an erection to look at your crotch and think "he's definitely packing a micro.

But to answer your main question I think your post is a valid reason to ctb.
 
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MicropBaldCurrycel

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Dec 29, 2021
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Nobody is watching your crotch on the street, life doesn't work like that lol
WRONG, watch the video i linked that he explains why he doesnt go out and even shows his crotch area , mine even looks worse and more odd. There is defintely women that crotch watch , i notice it everyda when i got out , i dont care wheter you believe me or not but do not impose your views on me or invalidate my life experiences. its my body and life i know what i go through everyday. I will not let anyone tell me its all in my head.
 
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PinkSakura

Rip Flower I'll never forget you </3 我想你花
Feb 8, 2021
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WRONG, watch the video i linked that he explains why he doesnt go out and even shows his crotch area , mine even looks worse and more odd. There is defintely women that crotch watch , i notice it everyda when i got out , i dont care wheter you believe me or not but do not impose your views on me or invalidate my life experiences. its my body and life i know what i go through everyday. I will not let anyone tell me its all in my head.
What makes you believe this? Do women approach you and tell you that you have a small crotch?
 
freedompass

freedompass

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Jan 27, 2021
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Online forums for people who identify as demi- or asexual or other atypical sexual orientation might be a place to start at least? I mean I'm sure you'd like to meet someone irl but it might help you feel less alone and get a feel for what your options might be?
i would love to find a girlfriend like these but how do i find them?
The issue is that most people want a romantic and sexual relationships. What you are suggesting is basic friendships, but if that were enough for the OP, he wouldn't be having the issue in his first post.

Friends are a dime a dozen and can and will drift away. With a romantic parter, you have an SO and a best friend in one.
Aro and ace relationships are not the same as 'basic friendships'. If OP chooses he can certainly seek out a romantic relationship. It is a matter of finding someone who is down with what he wants and who wants something similar, that's all.
 
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maybe thERe are othER bettER options buddy boyo
 
DetachedDreamer97

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Mar 17, 2018
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Using the word 'Currycel' implies that all Indian men living in Western countries can't form relationships because of their race. So go ahead, report me, and I'll report you for using racist language.
I don't think "currycel" is all that racist if it's coming from an Indian talking about himself, if anything it's self-loathing at worst. You calling him a "retarded wank-stain" is actually kinda harsh.

As for OP, I'm sorry… that's all I can say…
To answer your question, any reason is valid if you feel like you're deprived of something.

I'm here because of my obsession with dreams.
 
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May 10, 2022
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@MicropBaldCurrycel I feared you wouldn't come back. I'm sorry for the way this thread was hijacked. I was really worried that it would make you feel that you weren't understood.

Have you seen or are you comfortable seeing a doctor about your issue? I see it's a really painful situation for you.
 
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I don't think "currycel" is all that racist if it's coming from an Indian talking about himself, if anything it's self-loathing at worst. You calling him a "retarded wank-stain" is actually kinda harsh.

As for OP, I'm sorry… that's all I can say…
To answer your question, any reason is valid if you feel like you're deprived of something.

I'm here because of my obsession with dreams.
Obvious they are self loathing and referring to themself with that term but pain in the ass got butt hurt and went on a long useless rant for whatever reason.
 
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I don't think "currycel" is all that racist if it's coming from an Indian talking about himself, if anything it's self-loathing at worst. You calling him a "retarded wank-stain" is actually kinda harsh.

As for OP, I'm sorry… that's all I can say…
To answer your question, any reason is valid if you feel like you're deprived of something.

I'm here because of my obsession with dreams.
What even IS a retarded wank stain?! It makes no sense anyway, so how can it even be offensive? It's just silly. I took umbridge to his claim that he knows what others are thinking and the intention behind their actions. But I failed to consider that this is how a lot of people with mental illness feel, regardless of being told by most people that this is untrue and probably imagined. But I'm not a therapist and this is not a paid therapy forum. It's a bunch of pretty fucked up people, myself included, considering suicide. Misunderstandings and intolerant behaviour is going to happen, if that's what I was doing.

But I shall refer the thread poster to this video again...

 
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What even IS a retarded wank stain?! It makes no sense anyway, so how can it even be offensive? It's just silly. I took umbridge to his claim that he knows what others are thinking and the intention behind their actions. But I failed to consider that this is how a lot of people with mental illness feel, regardless of being told by most people that this is untrue and probably imagined. But I'm not a therapist and this is not a paid therapy forum. It's a bunch of pretty fucked up people, myself included, considering suicide. Misunderstandings and intolerant behaviour is going to happen, if that's what I was doing.

But I shall refer the thread poster to this video again...


Basically a cumstain… which in a way, it is kinda accurate with us all originating from sperm cells. But still… "retarded".

You're wasting your time with the video referral.
 
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locked*n*loaded

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The issue is that most people want a romantic and sexual relationships. What you are suggesting is basic friendships, but if that were enough for the OP, he wouldn't be having the issue in his first post.

Friends are a dime a dozen and can and will drift away. With a romantic parter, you have an SO and a best friend in one.
There are different types of relationships. My neighbor has a gf and they've been together for at least 20 years. I was talking with him once, and I'm not sure how the subject came up, but he told me that they don't have sex. I'd still consider them in a romantic relationship. I know they kiss because I've seen them we she comes over. I know he stays over her house, and she stays at his, too. As a matter of fact, he moved over here from a differnet town so he could be closer to her house, which is only a couple blocks away. I think it depends on what each person wants and needs.

As far as bulges in the crotch.........I have no idea whether females check out guy's crotches or not. What I do know is that different pants, in the way they fit, can make a huge (no pun intended) difference in how the "bulge" looks, and is, presumably, perceived.
 
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WorthlessTrash

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Apr 19, 2022
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There are different types of relationships. My neighbor has a gf and they've been together for at least 20 years. I was talking with him once, and I'm not sure how the subject came up, but he told me that they don't have sex. I'd still consider them in a romantic relationship. I know they kiss because I've seen them we she comes over. I know he stays over her house, and she stays at his, too. As a matter of fact, he moved over here from a differnet town so he could be closer to her house, which is only a couple blocks away. I think it depends on what each person wants and needs.

As far as bulges in the crotch.........I have no idea whether females check out guy's crotches or not. What I do know is that different pants, in the way they fit, can make a huge (no pun intended) difference in how the "bulge" looks, and is, presumably, perceived.
True but OP clearly wants a relationship that involves sex, otherwise this thread wouldn't even exist, so anyone suggesting OP seek out a nonsexual relationship is a nonstarter.
 
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True but OP clearly wants a relationship that involves sex, otherwise this thread wouldn't even exist, so anyone suggesting OP seek out a nonsexual relationship is a nonstarter.
I understand that. I read his post. I still think it is important to affirm that other types of relationships can be just as valid and fulfilling. Hell, I think all relationships, eventually, if they last long enough, say for couples that have been married for 70 or more years, end up being platonic.
 
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WorthlessTrash

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I understand that. I read his post. I still think it is important to affirm that other types of relationships can be just as valid and fulfilling. Hell, I think all relationships, eventually, if they last long enough, say for couples that have been married for 70 or more years, end up being platonic.
You are very correct.

My response you initially replied to was to someone who suggested op seek out non romantic or non sexual relationships, which OP isn't looking for.
 
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I've already posted about this, but I've dated a guy with a small penis before. I don't want to write up all of my experiences again, but he was my absolute favorite boyfriend. I still think of our time together, lol. He ended out dating and then marrying an old friend of mine from college. He was amazing in bed by the way. The things we would do to each other in bed, hehehe. When I think of him, he always reminds me of art class and the sculptures of dudes with small micro penises. I called him Adonis :)

I quickly read over this thread, but it's way too long and wordy. I couldn't watch the video either, because it requires you to log into YouTube. It doesn't really matter to me, cause I've never looked at a guy's crotch like you describe. I simply can't relate to that kind of stuff.
 
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