• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

venua

venua

ven *
Jul 1, 2023
60
I feel nothing anymore. Not even sad. I wish I could've been better. Better at everything. A better daughter. A better sister. A better friend. I've never felt true happiness. I hate myself for being such a shit person. I love everyone and I can't show it. I love you mother, father, and brother. I just wish I did better. I wish I had passed in that hospital. It was supposed to happen. It would've made everything easier for everyone. I'm so sorry about everything. You said it yourself, mother. You wasted 7 months of your life for me to turn out like this. Sorry for not talking more. For not being strong like everyone else. I love you. Everyone. All of you. Even the people who have hurt me. I love you. I'm sorry, when you have to see me like this in the morning. I love you so much. I love you more then I can express. It hurts. It all hurts. Sweetheart I wish I was a better for you. But I can't change that. Your life was my lifes best part. I love you.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Aww..
Reactions: ultrasharpy123456, Wehmut, Sannti and 4 others
Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
5,228
It is the mark of a great individual to remain in a loving place even in the darkest despair. But it is important to include yourself in those you care for. Sometimes, when self-blame is taken to extremes, it is caused by excessive pressures in childhood, or being pressured to take on adult responsibilities too soon. I feel that if you investigate the situation further, you will find that your parents have committed some sins.
 
  • Love
Reactions: venua

Similar threads

cciro
Replies
1
Views
172
Suicide Discussion
zixd
Z
badkarma4618
Replies
1
Views
182
Offtopic
gottacheckout
gottacheckout
@araxy
Replies
0
Views
205
Suicide Discussion
@araxy
@araxy
PI3.14
Replies
6
Views
381
Suicide Discussion
lawlietsph
lawlietsph
5_5
Replies
2
Views
323
Suicide Discussion
5_5
5_5