Nothing is worth living for to me

[Butterfly-death]

I would die right this moment if I could with no second thought. I don't care about the little things life as a whole is so depressing and I'm sick of it. Death will be the best thing to ever happen to me. I'm so tired of everything. I just want it to end. Life is boring, very difficult, and emotionally draining. I fucking hate living. "Oh but what about the people you love? What about good food? What about cool experiences?" I DON'T CARE NOTHING IS WORTH THE WAY I FEEL EVERYDAY. They don't understand I am not going to get better. Therapy and medication doesn't help everyone. I hate feeling this way. I don't want to exist. I'm going to die before I turn 25 for sure because I don't know how much more I can take of this. Let it end :(

 

[Quietist]

I feel you. I was at least being sustained with PC games and binge-watching shows as modes of escapism.

But even that has been stripped from me lately.

Unless one has perks such as beauty, talents, or money, life truly does not seem worth living.

A comforting thought is that the "other side" is actually quite pleasant and like "waking up from a dream" according to many NDErs, so that's something, I guess.