Oblivionetc
Member
- Aug 3, 2023
- 15
I recently nearly decided to kill myself because my xxx said I needed to pay thousands of dollars (all the money I've saved and invested over the course of my life) for scratching the car when I was taking out the trash bins. I started researching where I should jump, because I'm not in a country where guns or lethal substances are an option. I found a high bridge, and the only reason I didn't start going there right away was because I was afraid it wasn't high enough and there isn't another easily accessible high place to jump.
But I just need to keep telling myself that one day I will no longer be in this house. One day I can live by myself. I just need to keep telling myself that before I kill myself.
Idk, I know my reasons are rather trivial compared to everyone else's, and I'm aware my reaction isn't healthy or logical, but I just wanted to share I guess.
I hope everyone's doing well.
But I just need to keep telling myself that one day I will no longer be in this house. One day I can live by myself. I just need to keep telling myself that before I kill myself.
Idk, I know my reasons are rather trivial compared to everyone else's, and I'm aware my reaction isn't healthy or logical, but I just wanted to share I guess.
I hope everyone's doing well.