not real

[cherryistired]

i feel that i am not real and nothing around me is. i go to sleep and have these vivid dreams and then wake up and look around myself. i realize this is not where i am and this isn't me. none of my "problems" are real and when i cry about them, it's just nonsense. i also feel that i'll never be happy in this place. no matter if things are fixed or if i find love, i'm selfish and will never feel happy. i want to sleep forever and i deserve it because people try for me but it does nothing. i want to go to bed i want to be unconscious. because i'm not a real person and i'm hurting everyone around me.