Not now but eventually

[nothirdact]

I always feel like eventually I'll go through with it. Eventually the things keeping me here won't be strong enough. Right now I'm dealing with a lot of fear around work and life in general. I've just kind of accepted that suicide is how I'll die. Maybe not today or tomorrow or next month. Maybe it'll be years. But eventually. Does anyone else feel this way?

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

Sorry to hear that

Yeah. And the worse my situation gets the more sure I become. And then when things look up just a little bit, I think, well, maybe I could make it. And inevitably when things turn sour again I think myself a fool for even believing that for half a second

 

[trianglesplayhouse]

I've always thought that I'll die by suicide. I want to die by suicide no matter how well my life is going. I want it to be my choice when and how exactly I die. Although I wont lie, it's mainly coming from a suicidal place of wanting to end my life early

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes. For me, it's because I want to wait for my Dad to go first. I suppose it's more a very sincere hope for me- that I'll have the guts to suicide. So, not a definite feeling I will. More, a desperate hope. It gives me hope too. Hope that I can get through the remaining shit here because the exit is on the horizon.