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Venting Not much of suicide, but I just want to hurt myself as much as possible...

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"Noone can hear you scream when you're drowning"
Feb 13, 2023
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I want to live in this world. As much as I hate myself and this world, I know I must live. I need to live. There are people who love me and count on me... but feeling numb, not processing my feelings, feeling entirely negative and depressed consistently for god knows what. Knowing life had you fucked up to irreversible damage makes me just want to cut my body up. My left arm is messed up and there are too many scars to overlap and create new ones. I don't want to do other parts of my body because I don't want any attention to my mental health from my friends and family. I kept fantasizing about just cutting myself up and watching myself bleed. I want to do that as much as I want to and the urge of it have been growning.
 
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