Venting not as bad but still not great.

[synthcadia]

i'm slightly concussed but i just wanna vent my anxiety.

i find that after a concussion, my deep depression goes away temporarily. right now i am just a bit anxious.

i'm scared something really bad will happen while i'm away for china and i will have a huge regret. i found a way to try not to have that. (spending time with my grandmother)

everything on with the epstein stuff has also been exasperating my anxiety. i haven't gone through anything like that but i relate to the pain and fear from abuse, and i feel like i'm a little kid again when i read about this sick stuff.

i wanna think it's fake but it's not. and it's so bad that i'm not even triggered anymore because i am just forgetting everything all over again.

at least i have my boyfriend. he is amazing as he loves me despite being broken.

anyway. i just felt like i wanted to share that.

 

[Mr.Tristesse]

Being "broken" doesn't mean you're not worthy of love after all.