not ACTIVELY suicidal but wish i killed myself when i was younger. Wtf is that about :/

[shrusho]

I'm not currently ACTIVELY suicidal but i always think about how i should've killed myself when i was younger. Like i don't have it in me to make that desicion anymore, my life is too good. but if that's the case why aren't i appreciative that i rode it out?? why do i wish i had gone thru with it? but i dont make any plans to kill myself anymore ,,, like i've accepted i will live a natural life.

 

[ropeburns&migranes]

I've wanted to kill myself since I was 12 years old. I only stuck it out because it was 'the right thing to do' and people also say it gets better. It's been 8 years now and I regret not doing it then every single day. Even though you wish you had gone through with it, I guess it was good that you stayed because you have a good life, even though sometimes you don't appreciate it. Maybe the pushes and pulls of life make you want to stay that much more

 

[5karlet]

we all have regerts but that doesn't mean we should let them eat us up inside.