not a lot going on at the moment

[hereandthere13]

i dont do anything with my life. like nothing. i had a job interview today (decent job but horrible pay) but ended up canceling with the excuse that i found another job already. i just have no motivation to do anything. im enrolled in online school but i have an F in one of my classes and my parents would be so angry if i dropped it, like ive done in the past. ill probably end up doing it anyways and face the consequences. otherwise i know i want to finish college and will try hard in the classes i do well in. what i mean is that when i begin to fail or feel like im not doing enough to be successful, then its much easier for me to say "fuck all, i dont care anymore". i wish i didnt have this mindset but ive been this way my entire life. i wanted to be a singer, and actor, an artist, etc. when i was a kid and even took lessons but met the same problem of thinking im not good enough. i dont do anything all day. sit around all day at kava bars watching movies or finishing college assignments 15 minutes before they're due. scrolling through social media makes me so sad to the point where ill be depressed for days. im constantly comparing myself to celebrities that seem to have it all, or are doing those things i mentioned that i had wanted to do in my childhood. its just so hard. life is pointless. i wish i had that drive. or was born with talent. or lived in a nicer area with lots of opportunities. but i just dont. and thats why i want to CTB.

 

[VegasLyra]

i dont do anything with my life. like nothing. i had a job interview today (decent job but horrible pay) but ended up canceling with the excuse that i found another job already. i just have no motivation to do anything. im enrolled in online school but i have an F in one of my classes and my parents would be so angry if i dropped it, like ive done in the past. ill probably end up doing it anyways and face the consequences. otherwise i know i want to finish college and will try hard in the classes i do well in. what i mean is that when i begin to fail or feel like im not doing enough to be successful, then its much easier for me to say "fuck all, i dont care anymore". i wish i didnt have this mindset but ive been this way my entire life. i wanted to be a singer, and actor, an artist, etc. when i was a kid and even took lessons but met the same problem of thinking im not good enough. i dont do anything all day. sit around all day at kava bars watching movies or finishing college assignments 15 minutes before they're due. scrolling through social media makes me so sad to the point where ill be depressed for days. im constantly comparing myself to celebrities that seem to have it all, or are doing those things i mentioned that i had wanted to do in my childhood. its just so hard. life is pointless. i wish i had that drive. or was born with talent. or lived in a nicer area with lots of opportunities. but i just dont. and thats why i want to CTB.

maybe if we end it we'll get reincarnated as taylor and travis' children

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

Sorry, but I love how many taystans are on this site. Pretty beautiful if you ask me.

i dont do anything with my life. like nothing. i had a job interview today (decent job but horrible pay) but ended up canceling with the excuse that i found another job already. i just have no motivation to do anything. im enrolled in online school but i have an F in one of my classes and my parents would be so angry if i dropped it, like ive done in the past. ill probably end up doing it anyways and face the consequences. otherwise i know i want to finish college and will try hard in the classes i do well in. what i mean is that when i begin to fail or feel like im not doing enough to be successful, then its much easier for me to say "fuck all, i dont care anymore". i wish i didnt have this mindset but ive been this way my entire life. i wanted to be a singer, and actor, an artist, etc. when i was a kid and even took lessons but met the same problem of thinking im not good enough. i dont do anything all day. sit around all day at kava bars watching movies or finishing college assignments 15 minutes before they're due. scrolling through social media makes me so sad to the point where ill be depressed for days. im constantly comparing myself to celebrities that seem to have it all, or are doing those things i mentioned that i had wanted to do in my childhood. its just so hard. life is pointless. i wish i had that drive. or was born with talent. or lived in a nicer area with lots of opportunities. but i just dont. and thats why i want to CTB.

Also, relatable to compare yourself to celebrities I don't use social media much, but the one person I do compare myself to, or wonder about their life, is TS.

 

[VegasLyra]

Sorry, but I love how many taystans are on this site. Pretty beautiful if you ask me.

Also, relatable to compare yourself to celebrities I don't use social media much, but the one person I do compare myself to, or wonder about their life, is TS.

Is this a safe space to say I've dreamt about Taylor gifting suicidal fans nembutal the parasocialness is insane

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

We rlly need to make a TS club atp. That's an impressive dream!

Is this a safe space to say I've dreamt about Taylor gifting suicidal fans nembutal the parasocialness is insane

 

[hereandthere13]

Sorry, but I love how many taystans are on this site. Pretty beautiful if you ask me.

Also, relatable to compare yourself to celebrities I don't use social media much, but the one person I do compare myself to, or wonder about their life, is TS.

This is so funny LMFAOO also yeah I'm a big taylor fan hence the reference in the title. She's definitely one of those celebrities that makes me jealous because of how perfect her life seems. Obviously everyone has problems but being a billionaire would definitely make them seem a lot less problematic.

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

This is so funny LMFAOO also yeah I'm a big taylor fan hence the reference in the title. She's definitely one of those celebrities that makes me jealous because of how perfect her life seems. Obviously everyone has problems but being a billionaire would definitely make them seem a lot less problematic.

Do you think she ever puts on prosthetic noses and stuff to go out in public in peace?

 

[hereandthere13]

Do you think she ever puts on prosthetic noses and stuff to go out in public in peace?

I wouldn't be surprised if she had a whole disguise setup for this kind of days. But honestly it would probably be hard to pull off given how fucking insane her fans are. But if she does and it works then I'm happy for her. Being an A-list celeb like her sounds exhausting. Makes sense why half her discography is about struggling in the spotlight.

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

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I wouldn't be surprised if she had a whole disguise setup for this kind of days. But honestly it would probably be hard to pull off given how fucking insane her fans are. But if she does and it works then I'm happy for her. Being an A-list celeb like her sounds exhausting. Makes sense why half her discography is about struggling in the spotlight.

is kind of crazy to have your narrative, starting around TS6, be about fame and not being a "normal" partner. It's so unrelatable, but real to her. I can't think of other musicians off the top of my head to talk about that stuff, except maybe rappers.

 

[hereandthere13]

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is kind of crazy to have your narrative, starting around TS6, be about fame and not being a "normal" partner. It's so unrelatable, but real to her. I can't think of other musicians off the top of my head to talk about that stuff, except maybe rappers.

it made sense in the past given all the shit she went through with Kanye west and struggling with an eating disorder. And while I understand those struggles don't just magically disappear it has been difficult to get on with her recent music, especially TLOAS. I miss Joe… :( i will say that I've always appreciated how her music literally reflects what's going on "at the moment" so there's that.

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

it made sense in the past given all the shit she went through with Kanye west and struggling with an eating disorder. And while I understand those struggles don't just magically disappear it has been difficult to get on with her recent music, especially TLOAS. I miss Joe… :( i will say that I've always appreciated how her music literally reflects what's going on "at the moment" so there's that.

I don't miss Joe, but sometimes I wonder how her mind works in a romantic sense. I think it's funny that Taylor and matty broke up, and then married the next people they dated I don't really believe in long lasting love, and it seems so much harder if you're hot and famous because opportunities are everywhere… I guess TS is one of the only things I wonder about, future-wise. I wish I could know about TS13 and literally how many albums she'll make in her lifetime.