Nobody understands my plan/I’m only here for shock value

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

I just got absolutely FLAMED for having a plan that isn't the basic "I'm so sad and depressed I'm gonna go hang myself alone in my room" like are we deadass :,) I'm not important enough to anybody for that to be worth it lol.

No but fr tho does anybody else just want to use their death for short term shock factor? I mean like that's how people view everything involving me. I am only here for short term entertainment and I've learned to accept that. Why would my death be any different?

Lol if I killed myself over being depressed I would've never even been born. I'm just sick of living, it's too much work. This was what I was put on this earth to do, this is my purpose.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I just read it. Teenage edgelord shit

 

[U. A.]

I tried to parse the other thread and it's indecipherable. You only want to kill yourself to maybe hurt someone that you don't really care about hurting, who said some bad things about you but didn't actually hurt you?
..what..?

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

Bro

I tried to parse the other thread and it's indecipherable. You only want to kill yourself to maybe hurt someone that you don't really care about hurting, who said some bad things about you but didn't actually hurt you?
..what..

I just read it. Teenage edgelord shit

EXACTLY!!! Oh my God, you get it!!! Mwah
I refuse to believe you're not trolling right now. There is no way in hell you are this stupid. You're doing this on purpose, right?
I refuse to believe you're not trolling right now. There is no way in hell you are this stupid. You're doing this on purpose, right?

I tried to parse the other thread and it's indecipherable. You only want to kill yourself to maybe hurt someone that you don't really care about hurting, who said some bad things about you but didn't actually hurt you?
..what..?

I'm gonna try to break it down in more simple terms for you

I am meant to ctb. That is my purpose. It's a very boring purpose, however so I'm trying to make it more fun. The person mentioned earlier is not relevant to me wanting to kill myself, I don't even want to kill myself it's just what I have to do.

I like the plan because it's complicated. It's hard to do. It's stupid, it's pointless. Just like my life. I'm meant to kill myself so why not have fun with it? Make something so simple and stupid into a fun challenge.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

You didn't get flamed in the other thread. Like one person called you a larper, which you are.

 

[iveseenfootage]

Larp or mania call it

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

You didn't get flamed in the other thread. Like one person called you a larper, which you are.

Idk lol

do you have bipolar disorder or manic depression?

i've never said this to anyone on here, ever, but your writing and vibe is manic episode, there are pills that can help, have you seen a professional?

Lmfao you're joking right? Yes, my manic episode has lasted my whole life. I was born manic and I will die manic. There's no way that these could ever possibly be my own thoughts. Lol y'all are funny asl :,)

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

Larp or mania call it

I'

again, not sure if you are larping, but 18-21 can be when mental health issues kick in, i'm getting a younger vibe from you, have you been seen by a doctor to determine if you have having a manic episode? people can also be suicidal and manic. you really need an evaluation if this is not larping, the way you are writing, the vibe, the whole style seems like first manic episode to me, please go get an evaluation

"First manic episode" and I've been diagnosed and heavily medicated since elementary school ok lol :,). Why aren't you telling everybody else to go get an evaluation? We're all suicidal I'm just not the kind you like

 

[mjolnir]

I didn't understand this topic...

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

Larp or mania call it

The fact that I'm in a depressive episode rn too :,) please never work in psych

I didn't understand this topic...

Girl born. Girl severely mentally ill from birth. Girl meet nurse in mental hospital. Nurse helps girl learn her purpose. Girl now know purpose. Girl trying to make purpose less lame. Girl not the good kind of mentally ill so girl no get help girl get touched instead. Girl go to sleep.

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

So are you saying it's your first manic episode and someone already evaluated you for that and also you've been taking medications since elementary school?

Or are you saying you've been taking medications since elementary school and you have been evaluated, you're just suicidal, and I'm making assumptions about you that are wrong?

I'm just not totally understanding. I don't dislike you. I don't know you well enough to have an opinion, but I might be someone who would like you, I don't know. I like a lot of people on here because I'm depressed and so I tend to relate more to people on here.

I've been having manic episodes since I was a veryyyy small little baby child. I am also not manic rn lol.

Yes to the first part but I'm not suicidal lol just realistic. I'd rather not die but this is my purpose sooo.

You definitely will not understand. Depressed people will never understand, they only think one way. "Life miserable I go die now." I wish that I was that simple. Lucky youuuu

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

So are you saying it's your first manic episode and someone already evaluated you for that and also you've been taking medications since elementary school?

Or are you saying you've been taking medications since elementary school and you have been evaluated, you're just suicidal, and I'm making assumptions about you that are wrong?

I'm just not totally understanding. I don't dislike you. I don't know you well enough to have an opinion, but I might be someone who would like you, I don't know. I like a lot of people on here because I'm depressed and so I tend to relate more to people on here.

There's different things going on with your profile and way of talking that make me slightly concerned you are just larping, like being mean to people on here. I am so so sorry if that's not what you are doing. You probably aren't. The username girlsjustwant2vomit seems sort of eating disorder/angsty/overthetop and then the picture looks like a real person who is super high energy, super happy, and then the writing seems sort of over the top and manic. I don't know if you are manic, don't know if you are being real and are hurt and this is you and you're just intense sometimes... I'm not sure...

You're probably being real and I'm just feeling concerned because of the whole YouTube video publicizing the site recently.

I still feel like you are possibly super high energy and it's a bad place to make any rash decisions, you know? Sorry, not trying to be pushy...

I didn't read the second half holy shit.

My pfp is an actress I don't remember her name but she was in some Lucifer valentine stuff.

I'm not larping im just being mean because y'all are trolling and it's annoying lol

Idk why y'all all think that everybody who kills themselves is some sad pathetic loser. I have a perfect life. This is just my purpose and that's not my fault.

I was sexually assaulted and have damage in my genitals. The person who did it drugged me, pretending we were going to have fun, then attacked me. He was never prosecuted. Multiple surgeries later, I am still damaged. Not trying to guilt trip you, but I'm not lucky.

If you're saying that you cycle so much, that suicide is inevitable, I get that? But also saying "it's my purpose" sort of seems like nearly psychotic manic thinking.

If you aren't larping, sorry for wondering. With the recent YouTube video it's hard to know what is going on in terms of newer people or people who haven't posted as much.

Oh my God bro here we go again with the manic psycho shit

I have to keep saying it's my purpose because y'all are choosing not to understand. Genuinely this gotta be trolling I've never interacted with somebody this stupid before.

Also how is you getting raped relevant?

 

[Always-in-trouble]

I didn't read the second half holy shit.

My pfp is an actress I don't remember her name but she was in some Lucifer valentine stuff.

I'm not larping im just being mean because y'all are trolling and it's annoying lol

Idk why y'all all think that everybody who kills themselves is some sad pathetic loser. I have a perfect life. This is just my purpose and that's not my fault.

Oh my God bro here we go again with the manic psycho shit

I have to keep saying it's my purpose because y'all are choosing not to understand. Genuinely this gotta be trolling I've never interacted with somebody this stupid before.

Also how is you getting raped relevant?

Okay, what reason or thimg is giving you this purpose because this is very vauge and I would like to know.

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

Either you're trolling and larping or you're manic. No one actually has a "perfect life" but thinks suicide is their purpose unless they are psychotic and manic... or unless they are a larper.

I guess I'm in the sad pathetic loser club? cool.

if you're being honest and not larping, seriously go to an ER, you're incredibly manic and borderline psychotic.

I can't go to the ER. I am like this because of the ER. I'm also very veryyy poor and can't afford that. Like at all. I'm being so fr I would go if I could afford it but I can't. One night in the ER where I am is thousands. Also they treat you like an animal there if you're not just sad.

I say perfect life because I have what other people want. I have no problems that aren't genetic.

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

You said I was a lucky person, I described how I'm not. It was relevant because you claimed I'm some lucky person who can't understand you, and I was pointing out your misconception.

I get what you are saying about the ER and not being able to afford it. ER costs are ridiculous and exploitative.

You said you have no problems that aren't genetic. I am not following. Do you have Huntington's or something?

Mental illness=genetic for me

you're not a lucky person you're lucky that your problems are ":(" and not ";P". I am happy and suicidal and it doesn't make sense to anybody.

Okay, what reason or thimg is giving you this purpose because this is very vauge and I would like to know.

Nurse in mental hospital told me that I will die by suicide eventually when I was 13. One sentence made me realize that she's right. I will kill myself I just need it all to be perfect.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Wow what the hell is this? Are you a real user or are you just trolling us here? Did you post this to get content for some YouTube video?
The person above wanted to help you and took her time and even mentioned her own sad suffering and you respond so disgustingly? Shame on you for that .

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

Wow what the hell is this? Are you a real user or are you just trolling us here? Did you post this to get content for some YouTube video?
The person above wanted to help you and took her time and even mentioned her own sad suffering and you respond so disgustingly? Shame on you for that .

She said "go to the er" that's not help that's how to get raped and put into debt lol

What is this YouTube video that you guys keep mentioning? I haven't seen it and can't find it

 

[sanctionedusage]

You said I was a lucky person, I described how I'm not. It was relevant because you claimed I'm some lucky person who can't understand you, and I was pointing out your misconception.

I get what you are saying about the ER and not being able to afford it. ER costs are ridiculous and exploitative.

You said you have no problems that aren't genetic. I am not following. Do you have Huntington's or something?

faded youre such a patient and kind person on this site it actually astounds me. im not gonna tell you what to do but just my 2 cents that it isn't worth your time/energy.

this started bc she lost her shit when i said her plan didn't make logical sense and she randomly backtracked into pretending it was always meant to be stupid/incoherent instead of just.. fixing the plan. now she's acting mentally ill via tiktok inspirations/depictions of mania and delusions.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Also how is you getting raped relevant?

I mean this part. She wanted to help you and mentioned about her horrible suffering and all you could answer to that was this ? Sorry but this is disgusting

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

Thanks, I'm super gullible, so you might be right? If I were less gullible, my situation would be a lot different right now...

THEY BLOCKED ME FUCK

I mean this part. She wanted to help you and mentioned about her horrible suffering and all you could answer to that was this ? Sorry but this is disgusting

I was gonna link something is that allowed

 

[Always-in-trouble]

A single nurse told you to and now its a revelation? Really? You should probably go to sleep and come back tomorrow when you have a more clear mind cause you are not being very aware of how you are going about this. (If not trolling, because I'm not even sure anymore).

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

What did I just read, is this a troll or not?

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

A single nurse told you to and now its a revelation? Really? You should probably go to sleep and come back tomorrow when you have a more clear mind cause you are not being very aware of how you are going about this. (If not trolling, because I'm not even sure anymore).

Yes. They always tell me that psych staff are smarter than me anyway. I've been told that more than once btw just in different forms. Been dropped by 20+ therapists because they "couldn't help" me.

What did I just read, is this a troll or not?

Oh my GOD y'all hate to see an actually mentally ill person and not a crybaby

faded youre such a patient and kind person on this site it actually astounds me. im not gonna tell you what to do but just my 2 cents that it isn't worth your time/energy.

this started bc she lost her shit when i said her plan didn't make logical sense and she randomly backtracked into pretending it was always meant to be stupid/incoherent instead of just.. fixing the plan. now she's acting mentally ill via tiktok inspirations/depictions of mania and delusions.

I've been trolling you, just you tho. I explained why my plan isn't supposed to make sense and you chose not to understand it. Womp womp

 

[Terrible_Life]

I didn't block you. I don't think I have anyone blocked.

Your patience is remarkable :)

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

Your patience is remarkable :)

Yeah idk why anybody's still entertaining this lol

 

[BlissfulEnigma]

I just got absolutely FLAMED for having a plan that isn't the basic "I'm so sad and depressed I'm gonna go hang myself alone in my room" like are we deadass :,) I'm not important enough to anybody for that to be worth it lol.

No but fr tho does anybody else just want to use their death for short term shock factor? I mean like that's how people view everything involving me. I am only here for short term entertainment and I've learned to accept that. Why would my death be any different?

Lol if I killed myself over being depressed I would've never even been born. I'm just sick of living, it's too much work. This was what I was put on this earth to do, this is my purpose.

ma'am, I'm not sure what to think of what you are talking about exactly, but comparing yourself to others like that is a bit immature. A lot of people are suffering, and the fact that you are saying "lol" in such a serious situation males me skeptical of the claims you are making.

 

[tiredcatboy]

This is an insanely pathetic attempt at ragebait dude, lol.

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

ma'am, I'm not sure what to think of what you are talking about exactly, but comparing yourself to others like that is a bit immature. A lot of people are suffering, and the fact that you are saying "lol" in such a serious situation males me skeptical of the claims you are making.

lol Ijsut like saying lol. ATP I am trolling but I wasn't before

This is an insanely pathetic attempt at ragebait dude, lol.

lol I was not ragebaiting before but I am now and they looooove it they're eating it right outta my palm

 

[tiredcatboy]

lol Ijsut like saying lol. ATP I am trolling but I wasn't before

lol I was not ragebaiting before but I am now and they looooove it they're eating it right outta my palm

"I'M NOT OWNED!!! I'M NOT OWNED!!! I WAS TROLLING LE EPIC RAGEBAIT TEEHEE!!!" dude c'mon, no one gaf. You're a nobody attempting to troll suicidal people and it's failing, hard. Lol. Also no, you're not manic nor have you ever been manic.

 

[girlzjustwant2vomit]

When people who have manic depression have mania, they tend to be at highest risk of suicide, actually, so the "I am happy and suicidal" doesn't seem impossible to me.

I'm not happy because I'm suicidal or vice versa. Two things can be true at once.

"I'M NOT OWNED!!! I'M NOT OWNED!!! I WAS TROLLING LE EPIC RAGEBAIT TEEHEE!!!" dude c'mon, no one gaf. You're a nobody attempting to troll suicidal people and it's failing, hard. Lol. Also no, you're not manic nor have you ever been manic.

I mean I'm diagnosed with bipolar one lol. It wasn't ragebaiting at first but people keep insisting that it is so I figured why not. Ig my feelings aren't the ones you guys are ok with lol