nobody knows.

[ctemourge]

ive considered myself passively suicidal for awhile now. but now i fear im teetering on the edge of full blown attempting. im fully planning my attempt and fantasizing about it everyday. i feel bad because there is alot of people i will hurt in the process… but this pain is just too intense. truly. the worst part about it all is everyone thinks im doing amazing! id say 2025 is my last year alive. maybe sometime in december or january i can depart. i have alot of plans leading up to november that i simply cannot avoid , and i think that its best i finish what ive started before i leave. that gives me enough time to acquire enough stuff for my method anyways. sigh.
ive been a paranoid mess lately

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to suffer, I understand finding it painful to exist, it's so cruel to me how there's all this pain and suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.