Well, I'm out of money. I've made ask for financial help on X under my real name. But I'm also aware that I'm weeks away from homeless. No friends or family that will help. CPTSD from sustained episodic childhood torture.
I'm 42 autistic trans woman who won't make it on the streets.
Ideation has become a couple of partial hanging attempts. I've also ordered but then cancelled firearm purchase (social anxiety stops me from the in-store parts). I don't know how to do it. So I'm seriously trying now no water until my body shuts down. I'd rather die in this basement than on the street.
It's been a desperate 3+ years, remembering the beginning of my life, but maybe it's finally ending.
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This is from yesterday I posted on Reddit.
I'm 14 hours into the attempt. Feeling a little sluggish.
Still ready to go.
I'm 42 autistic trans woman who won't make it on the streets.
Ideation has become a couple of partial hanging attempts. I've also ordered but then cancelled firearm purchase (social anxiety stops me from the in-store parts). I don't know how to do it. So I'm seriously trying now no water until my body shuts down. I'd rather die in this basement than on the street.
It's been a desperate 3+ years, remembering the beginning of my life, but maybe it's finally ending.
—
This is from yesterday I posted on Reddit.
I'm 14 hours into the attempt. Feeling a little sluggish.
Still ready to go.
