Venting no one knows how i feel and it's killing me

[len]

ive been very depressed for 3 years now and i cannot show my real emotions to people, it's physically impossible to me. i have a bunch of friends but none of them know what ive been going through. im so so alone i just need someone who understands me and wouldnt judge me for being depressed and someone who will understand that im better off trying to CTB than alive.
i desperatly need someone to talk to and i dont know what to do anymore

 

[SmollMushroom]

Depression is often caused by some other kind of distress - if you want to talk more about how you feel, my DMs are open!

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Welcome to the forum.
It's very difficult going through this thing alone.
People, including friends and family are often frightened, or are incapable of understanding mental illnesses.
I think most people just keep it to themselves and suffer in silence, for fear of judgement from others.
I'm here if you need someone to chat to.

 

[Darkover]

The worst thing in life is ending up with people who make you feel all alone

 

[Left]

Are you willing to write a message to anyone? I was completely alone in this like you until I decided just this past year to write a message opening up about everything to my siblings. It took a lot of courage and I'm still ashamed and embarrassed about it. Still, I would encourage this for it may be better than going through this completely alone.