No one cares when I tell them about my Si

[Vesusboy]

I think If i tried, I could get over my suicidal thoughts. Or If i keep being apathetic towards everything I won't be able to care enough to go through with it. But it hurts no one in my life cares that I'm like this

I've told everyone in my life im suicidal. And they dont take me seriously. They don't even react sometimes. They just keep talking. Once I cried for hours over the phone with a friend and the next day she told me to stop emotionally manipulating her. They dont think im serious. Maybe I'm not. I want to be now. I dont want to get better and then everyone looks at this time of my life and thinks oh see he was totally fine. Im so deeply hurt by everyone around me for not caring, it makes me not want to be around them anymore. Which makes me feel so much worse

I feel like I have to do it now. So people know I was serious. I just don't want to fuck it up and live, because that's humiliating. But I want so badly to be taken seriously. If thats what it takes at this point

 

[fedup1982]

They don't sound nice. I'm grateful nobody has treated me like that in 20 years. The last time was a long time ago. Find nicer people

 

[Vesusboy]

I want to, its just a very unstable time to make new friends. I dont wanna go hey. Lets be friends. Btw. I really wish someone would come kill me