Venting No more fight in me

[argieb]

I'm 25 and everyday is a fight. I moved to a new city in January. I wanted to ctb Jan 1st if I hadn't moved out of my old city. Since moving I've lost 4 jobs, the person I moved with moved BACK a week after my birthday. Since then I've been struggling with homelessness, poverty and being the loneliness I've ever been. (This is a super abridged version it's been much worse)

It's crazy because I was sad and ready to ~exit~ for half of last year and I thought moving would fix it. Now I just feel completely broken down. Constant stress and anxiety about money for the past 10 months has ruined me and now I'm just ready for it to stop. I'm facing eviction again next week and I don't have anywhere to go or anyone to go to. If it gets there I want to just end it completely.

 

[Lookoutbelow]

Welcome to the club of despair. Life is a real piece of shit.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really dreadful what you are going through, it's awful how people have to suffer so much, I understand why you'd just wish to be free from it all.

 

[Bruce]

I'm 25 and everyday is a fight. I moved to a new city in January. I wanted to ctb Jan 1st if I hadn't moved out of my old city. Since moving I've lost 4 jobs, the person I moved with moved BACK a week after my birthday. Since then I've been struggling with homelessness, poverty and being the loneliness I've ever been. (This is a super abridged version it's been much worse)

It's crazy because I was sad and ready to ~exit~ for half of last year and I thought moving would fix it. Now I just feel completely broken down. Constant stress and anxiety about money for the past 10 months has ruined me and now I'm just ready for it to stop. I'm facing eviction again next week and I don't have anywhere to go or anyone to go to. If it gets there I want to just end it completely.

I'm sorry for what you're going through! : (

Can you move somewhere cheap, like in the countryside for example? Maybe do volunteering in an area like that. I used to do this.

 

[argieb]

I'm sorry for what you're going through! : (

Can you move somewhere cheap, like in the countryside for example? Maybe do volunteering in an area like that. I used to do this.

I'd really like too- my dream is still love on small homestead however in the area I live it would've be safe for me to do so. Maybe one day.

 

[Bruce]

I'd really like too- my dream is still love on small homestead however in the area I live it would've be safe for me to do so. Maybe one day.

Well I don't know how it is where you are from but in my area countryside properties can be found for dirt cheap, like 10-20 times less then what you'd pay for an apartment in a city. And a farmhouse has land around as well, where you can grow foodstuffs. General prices are also much cheaper in the countryside. Before deciding to CTB I planned to move there.

 

[haibane]

Im so sorry for what ure going through. Goodluck and i hope u will find peace

 

[argieb]

This post is from two years ago and nothings changed. I should've been brave enough to end it then.

 

[Off_Switch]

I'm sorry you had to spend what will likely be your prime years during COVID. And now having to deal with this post-COVID dystopia.