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Experienced
- Jun 11, 2025
- 226
Greetings,
just a little bit of my story:
I have already accepted, embraced, and decided, long ago, that I would go out in a way that will be caused by my own hands, or tools operated by them. I've made this decision more than 10+ years ago, and the very few users on here that know my specific age, can probably figure that I've made this decision at an age where I was very young.
It was not an impulsive decision, it was not a decision made out of emotional pain, or emotions all together.......
There isn't anything inside of me that I need to fight. I've stood alive for long enough to be very certain that this decision is a permanent solution to, for me, permanent problems. I could attempt to remove a few of them, and I am still very certain that it would not change my opinion on my own life. I've thought about doing this long before I have developed physical illness.
I don't do very well with being told to reconsider catching the bus. There simply just are people that do not want to be here for multiple, well researched, reasons. Like I've said:
Don't worry, this isn't a goodbye post. It will probably still take a while until I gather what I need, or find a good partner. I just wanted to write these thoughts of mine out, you probably already know the drill if you've seen my vent category posts before.
Thank you for taking the time to read this if you did, I hope I don't come across like I am trying to humble brag that I have it bad, that's not what I am intending by posting this rant.
Regards
just a little bit of my story:
I have already accepted, embraced, and decided, long ago, that I would go out in a way that will be caused by my own hands, or tools operated by them. I've made this decision more than 10+ years ago, and the very few users on here that know my specific age, can probably figure that I've made this decision at an age where I was very young.
It was not an impulsive decision, it was not a decision made out of emotional pain, or emotions all together.......
There isn't anything inside of me that I need to fight. I've stood alive for long enough to be very certain that this decision is a permanent solution to, for me, permanent problems. I could attempt to remove a few of them, and I am still very certain that it would not change my opinion on my own life. I've thought about doing this long before I have developed physical illness.
I don't do very well with being told to reconsider catching the bus. There simply just are people that do not want to be here for multiple, well researched, reasons. Like I've said:
Don't worry, this isn't a goodbye post. It will probably still take a while until I gather what I need, or find a good partner. I just wanted to write these thoughts of mine out, you probably already know the drill if you've seen my vent category posts before.
Thank you for taking the time to read this if you did, I hope I don't come across like I am trying to humble brag that I have it bad, that's not what I am intending by posting this rant.
Regards
