Nightmares occurring over and over. Why do I have to keep trying?

[nostalgia addict]

What's the point of having to keep trying when "things will get better" is a baseless lie and illusion. I went from having severe tinnitus but at least not being physically disabled to catching covid and now having long covid with POTS and chronic fatigue. I'm only 19 and I am disabled now, was physically fine a month and a half ago. And people will just expect me to try endlessly all over again just for the next thing to happen.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible what you are going through, I find it so incredibly cruel how people have to suffer so much in this existence yet suicide isn't seen as a valid option.