Help NEW RECOVERY THREAD NEED ALL THE SUPPORT I CAN GET

[BluesRunTheGame]

Sorry for what might be considered by some as clickbait. But by god I have SN, an itinerary to Beachy Head and have learned all the hanging knots.

But I'm currently drinking which does help my depression because I am an alcoholic.

If that makes sense?

I don't wanna die, kids! That's the headline.

I'm a NEET in his 30s: any tips on how to live thus are more than welcome... (Ideally from those who still consider ctb as an option without any kind of debate.)

 

[tabletop]

For me personally it helps to not have methods lying around my place accessible to myself. I've given my methods to a couple of friends of mine so (who won't give em back unless I feel better). I think that helps me to focus less on suicide. It helps not having an easy method around cause I can't focus on it and repeat to myself that it's an option. It may or may not help for you. And likely you can't get rid of all possible methods. Such as forms of ligature. At least that is how it is for me. But I do feel it helps to not have the easier methods lying around.

*hugs

 

[timf]

Tabletop has some good advice. Creating obstacles helps reduce impulsive decisions that might be regretted.

If you are using the alcohol to self-medicate (dull things) you might consider trying various medications that could do the same thing but with less health risks. You might also find tapering off to be easier as well.

 

[tabletop]

I just re-read the OP. I do want to add that I do def still consider ctb an option. However I HATE THAT I DO CONSIDER IT!!! Like yourself, I want to live. But frankly short of locking me up in a psych ward there is no way to fully remove it as an option. Just ways to make it more difficult.There is nothing easy about trying to feel better. :(

 

[Garbage Person]

Hope you're holding on however you can. If you want to live, I'm wishing you luck in your endeavors.

 

[CoolGuy9]

"itinerary to Beachy Head," what does this mean?

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

"itinerary to Beachy Head," what does this mean?

Just I know all the bus routes and footpaths and all that.

 

[CoolGuy9]

Just I know all the bus routes and footpaths and all that.

Ah okay. Hopefully you'll recover one day.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Ah okay. Hopefully you'll recover one day.

Cheers. Part of me wants to, part of me just doesn't.

 

[CoolGuy9]

Cheers. Part of me wants to, part of me just doesn't.

That's pretty relatable for me.

 

[tabletop]

Same here too. Sometimes I do feel a bit better and its like my brain tries to fight it. It's like wtf not supposed to feel good. ugh