New plan

[Nina1]

I have been so so angry about the barriers put on the bridge I had my eye on. I've finally come up with a new plan I think is even better. I am going to purchase an electric knife saw and cut into my femoral artery. I'm feeling much better and hopeful about this approach. I like that it will be private and that I can slowly fade away. So beyond excited

 

[Snatsbats]

That will probably not work. SI is very strong and will prevent you to cut yourself, also it would be very painfull

 

[Nina1]

Oh I also have a lot of pain meds and with the electric knife it will be so quick.
I am also a cutter so feel comfortable with that aspect

 

[Snatsbats]

Oh I also have a lot of pain meds and with the electric knife it will be so quick.
I am also a cutter so feel comfortable with that aspect

Well its your decision

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound like a horrifying way to go, but I do hope that you find freedom from your suffering. It's understandable as to why you would be angry about the bridge, it's so selfish how others want to try to force people to exist and make dying as difficult as possible for them.

 

[Felix007]

That does sound like a horrifying way to go, but I do hope that you find freedom from your suffering. It's understandable as to why you would be angry about the bridge, it's so selfish how others want to try to force people to exist and make dying as difficult as possible for them.

yeah i dont understand this "pro-life" aspect of our society either... how about create a better society instead of forcing people to stay alive?..

 

[Nina1]

That does sound like a horrifying way to go, but I do hope that you find freedom from your suffering. It's understandable as to why you would be angry about the bridge, it's so selfish how others want to try to force people to exist and make dying as difficult as possible for them.

Thank you!
Exactly! I attempted jumping even with the barrier and was locked in a psych hospital where they wouldn't accommodate my medical condition and had to escape. When I was caught they kept me even longer it was awful.
I dream of bleeding out I just didn't know how to successfully do it. I know it a bit gruesome, but for some reason I don't have any anxiety about it like I did jumping
Sending love

 

[GasMonkey]

Why not use a peaceful method? :)

 

[Nina1]

"A hint is one thing, but simply sharing the answer it leads to is dangerous."
– Kyoko Kirigiri.

As easy as it is to demonise pro-lifers, the barriers put on the bridge were more than likely a poorly calculated government attempt (they are really disorganised) to stop something they really haven't thought about. For starters, it's just a really dumb idea to start prevention by cutting access to the painless methods because it's like jamming a soldier's gun. They will just beat the enemy to death instead. So you should forgive them for their stupidity / lack of awareness, and it could help you reconsider... mangling yourself with an electric saw.

@Nina1 I am empathetic (despite how I sound) and relate to your situation, and am really not trying to be mean, but please use your brain, even in these trying times. There are less awful methods available, especially if you have money to spend. If you are seriously considering that, you should take some time to reflect on whether you really do need to commit right now. I'm not looking down on you... but as it stands it does sound like your mental state will be improved by just having a rest.

Also, if you are a cutter as you say, that is actually something I believe you can get help with in this society if you "reach out" (find a mental health counselor in your NHS branch if you have one) or if you are traumatised by your experience with them (not surprised) there may be videos on YouTube or someone here willing to help with it (you can PM me but I have no experience in this matter.)

Again, I am absolutely not looking down on you, your situation is much much harder than mine & I spent around 20 minutes thinking about this carefully so I do care. I believe suicide is best clean not messy and gory. PM me anytime

Oh I like gore and mess so that's why I'm choosing this method.
And thank you for reaching out.
I am ready to go I don't really need counseling I have chronic pain and an incurable disease not really depression or anything else
Sending love

 

[Nina1]

Why not use a peaceful method? :)

Sorry to hear this Nina but ultimately I can't stop you; maybe you should look into some Google images to see what kind of brutality you are getting yourself into.
Anyhow, having chronic pain is definitely sad but don't feel compelled straight to suicide for that because there are people who live happily with it. You could to if you get a lucky hand.
Also, I'd like to mention some advice - if this is for revenge, then it's a bad idea because it will just make you look like a bad person and if you fail you're never leaving that hospital lol

I have MCAS so I can't eat anything without a severe allergic reaction or pain I'm basically starving
I have an overactive immune system so can not take meds
Naw revenge suicide is ridiculous
This is for myself because I deserve peace for putting up a good long fight
How old are you Hun you sound very young

 

[DragonSlayer]

Wishing you find peace

 

[hamtaro]

I have MCAS so I can't eat anything without a severe allergic reaction or pain I'm basically starving
I have an overactive immune system so can not take meds
Naw revenge suicide is ridiculous
This is for myself because I deserve peace for putting up a good long fight
How old are you Hun you sound very young

I have the food and med issues too! Been going on for five months now. I hope you find the release you desire.

 

[Nina1]

I have the food and med issues too! Been going on for five months now. I hope you find the release you desire.

Ugh it's a nightmare
I'm so sorry
You too!!
Wow
Sending so much love and light your way

Wishing you find peace

Thank you!!
You too

 

[hamtaro]

Ugh it's a nightmare
I'm so sorry
You too!!
Wow
Sending so much love and light your way

Thank you!!
You too

Thank you, sweetheart!

If you're really set on going for your femoral artery, I think there's some discussions on Quora (of all places) about it.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I've lived with food issues for the last 20 years. Very few things I can eat without having adverse reactions. I don't have allergies to food, mind you, except for shellfish, but adverse reactions because of an endocrine disorder. The electric-like shocks in my head are the worst. It's hard to avoid everything that is bad for you. It sucks. And it's tiring beyond belief.

As far as the Op's post, not trying to diss your method, but sounds like a terrible way to go. I doubt cutting your femoral artery can be compared to cutting, and I doubt all the pain meds in the world will be sufficient to make tolerable the kind of pain that will be experienced from this method you are contemplating. But hey, if this is what you want to do, I wish you luck. It's your life after all, and if that's what you need to do to get to your peace, I hope you get there.

 

[Nina1]

Thank you, sweetheart!

If you're really set on going for your femoral artery, I think there's some discussions on Quora (of all places) about it.

Wow
That is very helpful
Thank you!

 

[Efilismislife]

I have MCAS so I can't eat anything without a severe allergic reaction or pain I'm basically starving
I have an overactive immune system so can not take meds
Naw revenge suicide is ridiculous
This is for myself because I deserve peace for putting up a good long fight
How old are you Hun you sound very young

Oh im familiar with mcas
Cause i also have food intolerances
And immune issues

There are treatments for mcas though
but i guess you already know

I was also wondering if analgesic could numb the cutting
But cant go with that method

i only cut my wrist but not fatal

 

[Nina1]

Oh im familiar with mcas
Cause i also have food intolerances
And immune issues

There are treatments for mcas though
but i guess you already know

I was also wondering if analgesic could numb the cutting
But cant go with that method

i only cut my wrist but not fatal

Wow I'm sorry to hear.
Yes I've had it for 4 years now and it is just progressing to the point I can not tolerate any medication
That is and interesting idea
Thank you!
Sending love

I've lived with food issues for the last 20 years. Very few things I can eat without having adverse reactions. I don't have allergies to food, mind you, except for shellfish, but adverse reactions because of an endocrine disorder. The electric-like shocks in my head are the worst. It's hard to avoid everything that is bad for you. It sucks. And it's tiring beyond belief.

As far as the Op's post, not trying to diss your method, but sounds like a terrible way to go. I doubt cutting your femoral artery can be compared to cutting, and I doubt all the pain meds in the world will be sufficient to make tolerable the kind of pain that will be experienced from this method you are contemplating. But hey, if this is what you want to do, I wish you luck. It's your life after all, and if that's what you need to do to get to your peace, I hope you get there.

Thank you
I am in pain all the time anyways
I can deal with a few minutes for eternal peace

I've lived with food issues for the last 20 years. Very few things I can eat without having adverse reactions. I don't have allergies to food, mind you, except for shellfish, but adverse reactions because of an endocrine disorder. The electric-like shocks in my head are the worst. It's hard to avoid everything that is bad for you. It sucks. And it's tiring beyond belief.

As far as the Op's post, not trying to diss your method, but sounds like a terrible way to go. I doubt cutting your femoral artery can be compared to cutting, and I doubt all the pain meds in the world will be sufficient to make tolerable the kind of pain that will be experienced from this method you are contemplating. But hey, if this is what you want to do, I wish you luck. It's your life after all, and if that's what you need to do to get to your peace, I hope you get there.

It really is so tiring
I'm so very sorry you're dealing with this