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Serena 2026

Serena 2026

Experienced
Jan 15, 2026
241
Same!

I got a full SN kit, full Exit Bag kit and now a full heath ledger kit ready at my disposal

I will most likely go via Heath Ledger as my life has been torture enough and I would very much not put a headache or more needless suffering to it :>

Well... I still haven't given up on Nembutal but it looks bleak... Sucks a lot. I would pay a huge sum for that ngl
Why do you think Nembutal is bad? Is it the taste? 🙄
 
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projeccao

Member
Jul 29, 2026
38
Why do you think Nembutal is bad? Is it the taste? 🙄
He meant that it's in a pain to get it. Nothing about the taste.

And btw, every single substance you might ingest to CTB won't taste good.

But for real, how can you even think about « the taste » when you are about to CTB wtf :pfff:
If you really want to do it, it doesn't matter comon. Worst case scenario it's bitter asf like all medicine and that's it. Just drink it like a shot and you good.

I'll never understand people who fear « the taste » wtf
Just do it. If there's something to fear about, it's to puke. That's it. Comon.
 
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Serena 2026

Serena 2026

Experienced
Jan 15, 2026
241
He meant that it's in a pain to get it. Nothing about the taste.

And btw, every single substance you might ingest to CTB won't taste good.

But for real, how can you even think about « the taste » when you are about to CTB wtf :pfff:
If you really want to do it, it doesn't matter comon. Worst case scenario it's bitter asf like all medicine and that's it. Just drink it like a shot and you good.

I'll never understand people who fear « the taste » wtf
Just do it. If there's something to fear about, it's to puke. That's it. Comon.
So, I'm new to the forum, but I've done enough research to know that nothing tastes like chocolate, hahaha... I've already bought my N, and I'm going to try to make the protocol (the taste) more bearable by using an anesthetic spray on my tongue... I hope it helps, hehehe. Sorry if I misunderstood anything—the translator isn't always my friend!! 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣🤣
 
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hollow466ah

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Feb 2, 2026
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So, I'm new to the forum, but I've done enough research to know that nothing tastes like chocolate, hahaha... I've already bought my N, and I'm going to try to make the protocol (the taste) more bearable by using an anesthetic spray on my tongue... I hope it helps, hehehe. Sorry if I misunderstood anything—the translator isn't always my friend!! 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣🤣
Did you find a source for N?
 
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WishfulNeanderthal

WishfulNeanderthal

Wishing for better times
Apr 18, 2025
238
Im still brainstorming on this method since this will be my method of choice (With SN as the backup plan, and partial hanging as the backup backup plan lol). I have no opiod tolerance, nor benzo tolerance, slight alcohol tolerance (but due to my SSRI, my sensitivity for alcohol is increased, could be a plus).

I cant get my hands on morphine since none of the markets here in scandinavia sells it, so i'll be going with 1g of heroin intravenous (or as much as i can put in a syringe), i'll go with 5x80mg oxycontin instead of 2, and u94 instead of the regular benzo (u94 is reported to be much stronger than regular xanax, even for people with benzo tolerance). This + alcohol + grapefruit and an antiemetic, i do not realistically think its possible to survive this, even without the heroin. The grapefruit + alcohol potentiates the opiods and benzos as mentioned before.

Would love any thoughts regarding my plan, its a bit overkill and while i cant get more oxycontin than this (due to it being expensive af), i do believe it is enough to ensure (as much as one can) a peaceful death.
 
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projeccao

Member
Jul 29, 2026
38
Im still brainstorming on this method since this will be my method of choice (With SN as the backup plan, and partial hanging as the backup backup plan lol). I have no opiod tolerance, nor benzo tolerance, slight alcohol tolerance (but due to my SSRI, my sensitivity for alcohol is increased, could be a plus).

I cant get my hands on morphine since none of the markets here in scandinavia sells it, so i'll be going with 1g of heroin intravenous (or as much as i can put in a syringe), i'll go with 5x80mg oxycontin instead of 2, and u94 instead of the regular benzo (u94 is reported to be much stronger than regular xanax, even for people with benzo tolerance). This + alcohol + grapefruit and an antiemetic, i do not realistically think its possible to survive this, even without the heroin. The grapefruit + alcohol potentiates the opiods and benzos as mentioned before.

Would love any thoughts regarding my plan, its a bit overkill and while i cant get more oxycontin than this (due to it being expensive af), i do believe it is enough to ensure (as much as one can) a peaceful death.
There's a seller from Poland on DH who sends Morphine to Scandinavia I believe. I tried to place an order with him but he refused to sell less than 3 tabs (30 pills).

Realistically I don't think you can IV 1g of heroin in 1 shot. You might wanna think about it. The 2 main reason I'm saying this are
1 : it's too much for one syringe
2: you might you unconscious while doing it
So if you really wanna do 1g, I'd drink the Oxy/benzo cocktail first then go for the IV.
But man, I'm telling you, 1g is way too much for 1 syringe. I've done IV but I've been chilling with people doing IV (cocaine) and the most they were doing was 0.2...
And those people were veteran to the game. And they would go straight to the toilet to puke

Apart from that, I think your plan sounds good especially since you're going for the IV heroin. I would still go harder on the benzos if you can.

But yeah it sounds good AS LONG AS THE HEROIN IS POTENT. That should be your main concerned.

5x80mg of Oxy is already good enough to trigger to respiratory distress. I can tell you, if you read my posts above man. I took a bit less than that without anything but alcool and I felt it.
As you said, we gotta go overkill for it.
 
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WishfulNeanderthal

Wishing for better times
Apr 18, 2025
238
There's a seller from Poland on DH who sends Morphine to Scandinavia I believe. I tried to place an order with him but he refused to sell less than 3 tabs (30 pills).

Realistically I don't think you can IV 1g of heroin in 1 shot. You might wanna think about it. The 2 main reason I'm saying this are
1 : it's too much for one syringe
2: you might you unconscious while doing it
So if you really wanna do 1g, I'd drink the Oxy/benzo cocktail first then go for the IV.
But man, I'm telling you, 1g is way too much for 1 syringe. I've done IV but I've been chilling with people doing IV (cocaine) and the most they were doing was 0.2...
And those people were veteran to the game. And they would go straight to the toilet to puke

Apart from that, I think your plan sounds good especially since you're going for the IV heroin. I would still go harder on the benzos if you can.

But yeah it sounds good AS LONG AS THE HEROIN IS POTENT. That should be your main concerned.

5x80mg of Oxy is already good enough to trigger to respiratory distress. I can tell you, if you read my posts above man. I took a bit less than that without anything but alcool and I felt it.
As you said, we gotta go overkill for it.
ah thank you for the reply ^^ and you're probably right about 1g being too much for 1 syringe, i'll have to do some more research regarding how much i can get in there realistically.
And for the unconcious part, my plan was basicially to stick in the syringe (without pushing the plunger), drink the drug cocktail, drink some grapefruit juice to mask the taste and then press in the plunger, the only concern here for me is that i will in all probability be quite drunk doing this, so thats another issue.

And you're right on the benzos, the u94 benzos would do the job (since i'll have 10 of them and subjective reports say they are 3-4 times stronger than xanax), but im gonna add another benzo ontop of that. And since i cant get in 1g of heroin into the syringe i'll up my oxy to 10x80mg.

Nausea will obviously be a problem but i'll be taking ondasetron AND truxal. The truxal might even potentiate the benzos since its also sedating.

Lastly, regarding the Polish seller you mentioned, i cant risk ordering from outside the country. But i've found a seller that sells 3 of the substances i need that can do deaddrops near me, so it should be all good.

Hopefully you and i wont have to resort to this method, but if it does, it seems pleasant
 
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projeccao

Member
Jul 29, 2026
38
ah thank you for the reply ^^ and you're probably right about 1g being too much for 1 syringe, i'll have to do some more research regarding how much i can get in there realistically.
You're welcome man
If I were you I'd try to find forums, people whom you can talk with about IV, especially drugs forum. There's a popular one in my native langage, I guess there's also one for you too. Or even english ones like Erowid or something like that. Just to know how much one can IV.
I Can't help more than that, I've never done IV, I have a problem with syringes :pfff:
And for the unconcious part, my plan was basicially to stick in the syringe (without pushing the plunger), drink the drug cocktail, drink some grapefruit juice to mask the taste and then press in the plunger, the only concern here for me is that i will in all probability be quite drunk doing this, so thats another issue.
That's why this kind of thing has to planned. Too drunk = might fail. Not drunk enough, not enough benzos prio = might fail aswell because of SI.
You and only you know what to do and how to dose the alcool and the benzos. If you are not used to drink alcool or using benzo, you should really PLAN the whole thing. Like you said, alcool might be a problem.
But I wouldn't try to be TOO DRUNK before doing it. It will probably fuck up the plan.
I know what I'm talking about since I'm a drinker and I've been with drinkers for so long now... Alcool makes people do the stupidest things... I'm an example of that, see my last posts where I took a whole lot of Oxy for basically no reasons with someone...

Yeah man know yourself so you make a great plan.
And you're right on the benzos, the u94 benzos would do the job (since i'll have 10 of them and subjective reports say they are 3-4 times stronger than xanax), but im gonna add another benzo ontop of that. And since i cant get in 1g of heroin into the syringe i'll up my oxy to 10x80mg.
10x80mg of Oxy sounds much better.

Lastly, regarding the Polish seller you mentioned, i cant risk ordering from outside the country. But i've found a seller that sells 3 of the substances i need that can do deaddrops near me, so it should be all good.
I'm really curious about how the deaddrops work for real. I've heard about it since 2015 butr never experienced it haha

Whatever happends man, take care of yourself.

And as for me. I'll bump up the dosages. I'll be back with a massive update once I'm done supplying all my shit. September may or may not be my date but yeah, I'll keep all of you informed/
 
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luna674

Student
May 1, 2026
180
Are all these drugs really necessary can't you od on Xanax or fentanyl
It is absolutely incredibly easy

as said. Go to tor.taxi and go to DrugHub there.
Every market on tor.taxi is valid
Hey I tried but it's not loading
 
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