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how hard would it be to order these off of those websites and have them delivered to Canada? are the customs too strict? would i get in trouble? lol
 
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I also thought about swaping the dosage or just making them even. I wish we could ask a doctor about it lol He'd probably say that it doesn't matter at this point. I don't know.
As of today and as I'm writing this post, there's no Morphine 200mg available on DH within the EU.
So we'll see how it goes from there...
You might have to wait a little before it comes back up. I managed to get my hands on 200mg tabs a few weeks ago, guess I got lucky.
Can I ask you if you're going for it or still gathering infos or ?
I have everything and more shelved, just not quite ready yet. Still have some personal things to take care of and I have a small shimmer of hope that might pull me through, but I'm pretty much done researching it all.
Yeah man, I've read the same about not having a full empty stomach.
Interesting. I know how opioids really slow down the gastric tract, so yeah I think vanilla yoghurt will be the way to go - just enough to mask the bitter, maybe?
I think I found something interesting about antiemetics.
I know using AI about CTB isn't recommended and I never talked about it. Basically used Grok and Gemini to talk about opoids and nausea. Asked them how it works and what medicine could help to prevent nausea. Which means the AIs and I talked about cancer, chemio ect...

From what they gathered, basically metocrlopramide blocks the "physical will from the body to throw up" and Ondansetron blocks "the signals from the brain" to throw up.
Those 2 medicines combined sound very powerfull.
It is interesting, yeah. They do work differently but from what I've read meto would be a little more useful since it also helps to speed up gastric emptying, which odansetron does not. The main difference is the receptors in the brain they hit. Meto works as a dopamine blocker and odansetron works as a 5HT antagonist. Meto also blocks serotonin at higher dosages, so it might be worth looking into upping the meto dose. Not sure though,
I hope it's okay to post these informations because they really seem relevant.

The main issue with Ondansetron is how to get it. It's basically made for very ill people... Meto is kinda easy to obtain (at least in my country) because it's a "basic strong" antiemetic but there's no way way to justify the Ondansetron if you're not that sick. I'm not sure....
DH... It's only available from India though, so it's a gamble depending on where you are.
Thanks man. I sourced the Valium x20, the Meto x20 as well as the Doxylamine (which is only 15mgx10 but it's only 3€ OTC so I'll go back to the pharmacy)

Flualprazolam x25 has been ordered, hopefully it will come within the next week.

I just ordered Oxy 80mg x6 and Zolpidem x20 while writing this post.

So as long as everything goes smooth, I'll only need to order the morphine
Honestly I think you should be able to get away without the morphine, given your oxy dose is high enough. I doubt 6x80mg would be enough, though. So maybe get upwards of 1000mg of oxy and skip the morphine. Also, don't forget the grapefruit! The grapefruit does nothing to potentiate the morphine, oxy however.. different story.
And yes as messed up as it is from both sides, I'll keep you up to date :pfff: That made me laugh because it's exactly how it is and it feels good to be able to speak freely.
Even if it makes me a bit sad too but yeah...
I've been thinking of CTB for years, back and forth and now I made my mind up. It's not impulsive and I feel like I lived what I had to live for if that makes sense. Which is probably why I'm not going to be dramatic about it.
+ I'm bad at cheering people up, so I'll share as much as data that I can. That's the least I can do on this forum.
Likewise. I can't be dramatic over it that much anymore. It does suck, but at the same time this forum has been somewhat of a blessing. It's provided much information and some solace in knowing there's a place where you can openly talk and discuss about these things. Saying you lived for what you had to live for does make sense to me, I feel a similar way. It just kinda feels like I'm done at this point. I could go on, but I just don't know that I'll be having a great time and I'll likely just dregde on until I fall apart anyway.
Most vendors tag it as "FLULAPRAZOLAM XANAX".
Flualprazolam is a forbidden substance. What I mean by that is that it's not being sold legally.
Like purebliss said "Anything that looks like xanax bars with XANAX carved into it is usually flualprazolam"

Basically that means buying a product made from a clandestine laboratory which means we are not even sure that it is the real substance. :pfff:
Unless it's blistered in the original pack you're taking a gamble on what's inside, really. Only one way to know for sure! Heh..
how hard would it be to order these off of those websites and have them delivered to Canada? are the customs too strict? would i get in trouble? lol
It's not hard to order anything off DNMs. You just gotta find your way around the software needed to get there. Check the DN bible on this site. When it comes to delivery and customs, who knows. I'm in the EU and all I know is you should do your best to order domestically. If it crosses international borders it will go through customs, and it's a gamble always.
 
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You might have to wait a little before it comes back up. I managed to get my hands on 200mg tabs a few weeks ago, guess I got lucky.
Yeah, the vendor I was thinking of also ran out of Oxy's stock last month but he got them back up for sale quickly so I'm no worried about it and will wait for it come back on sale.
The guy is selling from Germany, his name is kinda like "Breaking bad" maybe you got yours from him haha
Interesting. I know how opioids really slow down the gastric tract, so yeah I think vanilla yoghurt will be the way to go - just enough to mask the bitter, maybe?
Yeah something like that. Let's say eating a salad for lunch then in the evening, just eat some crackers while drinking alcohol and a yoghurt.
It is interesting, yeah. They do work differently but from what I've read meto would be a little more useful since it also helps to speed up gastric emptying, which odansetron does not. The main difference is the receptors in the brain they hit. Meto works as a dopamine blocker and odansetron works as a 5HT antagonist. Meto also blocks serotonin at higher dosages, so it might be worth looking into upping the meto dose. Not sure though,
I was thinking of combining both but didn't know the meto also blocks the serotonin at higher dosage. That's good news, thanks for the info (Gemini confirms what you said and considers 30 to 60mg as a high dose)
Following the the metoclopramide rule mentioned is this protocol sounds revelantr https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/
DH... It's only available from India though, so it's a gamble depending on where you are.
I live in the western side of EU so yeah I'm not ordering from India, especially for this type of product considering it's probably not mandatory.
There's a guy from Greece who sells it but bro, the quantity isn't as near as we'd need lol
Honestly I think you should be able to get away without the morphine, given your oxy dose is high enough. I doubt 6x80mg would be enough, though. So maybe get upwards of 1000mg of oxy and skip the morphine. Also, don't forget the grapefruit! The grapefruit does nothing to potentiate the morphine, oxy however.. different story.
Not forgetting the grapefruit juice and I'll even squeeze the fruit myself to make the juice :pfff:
But more important, let's not forget about the alcohol :haha: That will probably be vodka mixed with redbull.
Likewise. I can't be dramatic over it that much anymore. It does suck, but at the same time this forum has been somewhat of a blessing. It's provided much information and some solace in knowing there's a place where you can openly talk and discuss about these things. Saying you lived for what you had to live for does make sense to me, I feel a similar way. It just kinda feels like I'm done at this point. I could go on, but I just don't know that I'll be having a great time and I'll likely just dregde on until I fall apart anyway.
I understand what you mean. Especially when you say "I could go on, but I just don't know that I'll be having a great time and I'll likely just dregde on until I fall apart anyway."
I kept going for the past 10 years but as of today I really think I'M DONE. It really is what it is, "being done". I even said it to myself out loud even tho english isn't my first language.
Unless it's blistered in the original pack you're taking a gamble on what's inside, really. Only one way to know for sure! Heh..
Yeah... I'll try them once I received them and should be able to tell since I'm not a benzo user. I know how it feels since I've used xanax and valium a bunch of times over the last year, but that wasn't anywhere near to build up a tolerance.

And I was thinking about adding some original 1mg alprazolam on top of it for the final drink.
Then I've read about the Midazolam... This thing sound absolutely overpowered even compared to Valiums...
 
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Yeah, the vendor I was thinking of also ran out of Oxy's stock last month but he got them back up for sale quickly so I'm no worried about it and will wait for it come back on sale.
The guy is selling from Germany, his name is kinda like "Breaking bad" maybe you got yours from him haha
While I have seen this vendor, I decided to get them elsewhere! I actually have an oxy source in France which is nice - the morphine came from Poland I think.
Yeah something like that. Let's say eating a salad for lunch then in the evening, just eat some crackers while drinking alcohol and a yoghurt.
I'm still wondering what will reduce the nausea the most. I have a few more tests to do so I'll post the update once I do! I've been a little bit all over the place these last few days so haven't really found the structure to do a test for myself.
I was thinking of combining both but didn't know the meto also blocks the serotonin at higher dosage. That's good news, thanks for the info (Gemini confirms what you said and considers 30 to 60mg as a high dose)
Following the the metoclopramide rule mentioned is this protocol sounds revelantr https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/
Very interesting indeed! Thanks for checking that.
I live in the western side of EU so yeah I'm not ordering from India, especially for this type of product considering it's probably not mandatory.
There's a guy from Greece who sells it but bro, the quantity isn't as near as we'd need lol
I did try to order some stuff from India, just to see if it will come. I'm not too worried about the love letters or whatever. I'll let you know if it arrives! I'm in western Europe too.
Not forgetting the grapefruit juice and I'll even squeeze the fruit myself to make the juice :pfff:
But more important, let's not forget about the alcohol :haha: That will probably be vodka mixed with redbull.
I also read, some ketamine! I got some in the mail and I will try it one of these days. I did it once before, but probably hit too big of a line and found myself in a k-hole - that was not great at all.
I understand what you mean. Especially when you say "I could go on, but I just don't know that I'll be having a great time and I'll likely just dregde on until I fall apart anyway."
I kept going for the past 10 years but as of today I really think I'M DONE. It really is what it is, "being done". I even said it to myself out loud even tho english isn't my first language.
10 years huh. That's a long time. Have you been suicidal throughout? I always was pretty depressed and unmotivated, looking on as our world is going to shit with everything going on. It's just too much and it got to the point where I just kinda went insane. I'm working up the courage, meditating and getting myself okay with the fact that all will come to pass, but I'm sitll anxious every single day. It gets very tiring. I will hold on for longer, just because I have to right now - but the feeling of being done just keeps sticking to me like a piece of tape.
Yeah... I'll try them once I received them and should be able to tell since I'm not a benzo user. I know how it feels since I've used xanax and valium a bunch of times over the last year, but that wasn't anywhere near to build up a tolerance.
Yea I'd suggest take it easy on the benzos. I have a bunch laying around and once you start taking them it's just so easy to keep taking them. I have to discipline myself into having two days off at least after taking some on a day. For example, yesterday I took 50mg oxazepam so for the next two days I can't take anything. I'll have to live with my anxiety and try other ways to manage it.
And I was thinking about adding some original 1mg alprazolam on top of it for the final drink.
Then I've read about the Midazolam... This thing sound absolutely overpowered even compared to Valiums...
Midazolam is very different to valium! It just kinda puts you into a state where you don't register memories. I took 30mg last week, and while I was coherent throughout - felt kinda normal although sedated, when I woke the next morning it was like it never happened. Super strange, never had that happen before. When I take valium it just relaxes me all over, but it doesn't have that effect on the brain where you stop registering memories. Maybe in way higher doses, but definitely not in therapeutic dosages.
 
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While I have seen this vendor, I decided to get them elsewhere! I actually have an oxy source in France which is nice - the morphine came from Poland I think.
That's funny because I live in France and sourced the Oxy from a french vendor too AND as of today, while checking DH the morphine is back on sale from Poland hahahaha
I'm still wondering what will reduce the nausea the most. I have a few more tests to do so I'll post the update once I do! I've been a little bit all over the place these last few days so haven't really found the structure to do a test for myself.
How do you plan on testing ? Unless you mess around with opoids, I'm not sure there's a way to replicate this method to know what it takes to not puke?
And I would not mess around with opoids, between the withdrawal and tolerance that builds up quickly, that doesn't sound good.

Whatever is going on in your life, take care of yourself man.
I did try to order some stuff from India, just to see if it will come. I'm not too worried about the love letters or whatever. I'll let you know if it arrives! I'm in western Europe too.
Really interested in seeing if it comes through. Is this a regular order or something from the DW?
10 years huh. That's a long time. Have you been suicidal throughout?
Yes. To make it a short answer : The suicide thought went back and forth, depending on the situations. What helped for those 10 years was that I used to smoke weed. while I did the thought kinda went away at times they would always come back. Then I quit smoking. It's been 1 and a half year now. And the suicidal thought came back stronger than ever. I gotta quit the matrix and respawn (or not but I believe we respawn, just withing a different configuration).
I could explain it all in details but that would turn this post into a venting one haha
I always was pretty depressed and unmotivated, looking on as our world is going to shit with everything going on. It's just too much and it got to the point where I just kinda went insane. I'm working up the courage, meditating and getting myself okay with the fact that all will come to pass, but I'm sitll anxious every single day. It gets very tiring. I will hold on for longer, just because I have to right now - but the feeling of being done just keeps sticking to me like a piece of tape.

I always thought the whole system was a scam. Like going to school is just getting "formated" to be able to contribute to society which basically means being a slave as of it is. That's depressing man. I've been thinking about that since I was 8 years old, I'm not shitting you.
Always knew something was wrong. And this is why it made me depressed on top of having junkies as parents.
I was understanding everything. Tried to CTB 2 times before my 20s. Not luck.
After that I had to find a way to forget things, and to not care. Doctor gave me xanax and shit, I took them for 2 months then I switched to weed. It actually worked. As of today, I can't remember the useless stuff lmao
Let give you an example : I used to be able to remember every single things in a TV show. I could tell you what happened in Prison Break S02E07 and all the other episodes.

Anyways

Tried to go ahead, just try to live in this world. Things went "pretty well" if you consider having multiples girlfriends and jobs, having your own appartment and house. But nothing makes sense. it is so obvious that we are just here to be slaved.

I know I am not born into this illusion, for some reason, the illusion work on for some people. The basic illusion is "graduate > work > marry > make babies > work > die happy"

This is so retarded. I wish more people would see this mascarade. "IT WAS ALL A DREAM". It's number 1 bullshit. Which what makes this systems work.
We've been influenced since childhood. Since we were child we were taught to do this or that. For what reason?
Yea I'd suggest take it easy on the benzos. I have a bunch laying around and once you start taking them it's just so easy to keep taking them. I have to discipline myself into having two days off at least after taking some on a day. For example, yesterday I took 50mg oxazepam so for the next two days I can't take anything. I'll have to live with my anxiety and try other ways to manage it.
Appreciate your concern bro, no worries I won't abuse them. I don't want to build up a tolerance before I CTB.
I'll just try them.
Yesterday I couldn't sleep, I thought about taking a valium but heh, nope. I took doxylamine instead and let me tell you... It's weak. I understand why they give this shit OTC.

By reading you I understand that you know what "tolerance" means and do to your body, that's wise of you to stop taking meds in between man.
Midazolam is very different to valium! It just kinda puts you into a state where you don't register memories. I took 30mg last week, and while I was coherent throughout - felt kinda normal although sedated, when I woke the next morning it was like it never happened. Super strange, never had that happen before. When I take valium it just relaxes me all over, but it doesn't have that effect on the brain where you stop registering memories. Maybe in way higher doses, but definitely not in therapeutic dosages.
For some reason I really wanna try this midazolam :pfff: I've never been into pills but this sounds nice hahaha
30mg sounds so much. I've read a bunch about midazolam on a well known french forum about drugs, people were that this thing is strong.
I wonder how didn't you fall asleep while you took 30mg. Are you used to benzos ?

Anyways it's very nice to talk to you. I check this forum every day and only response when I'm on the PC because I don't llike people looking over my phone.

As for the updates, I'm still waiting for the flualprazolam (from GER to FRA) it's been a week now, hopefully I receive it tomorrow...
As well as the Oxy and zolpidem, domestic order so it should be quicker (4 days as of now including the weekend)
And the morphine has been ordered as of tonight, 6*200mg from Poland
Hopefully it will come in quickly as well.

And today, I was thinking about restricting air, like using a mask. I was thinking about using like 3 medicals mask. Take the drug drink, put on 3 layers of medical mask and lay in the bed.
The goal is to minimize the oxygen input. I'll research more about later, when I gathered all the stuff.


Basically, my plan is to acquire all the main stuff this month, gather some more information and CTB on the date of my choice in September.
Already found my hotel btw. A hotel I used to walk by, for some reason I was always interested by this hotel when I was going back from work. Kinda feel bad about the people that will find me there but that's life. How ironic.
 
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For some reason I really wanna try this midazolam :pfff: I've never been into pills but this sounds nice hahaha
30mg sounds so much. I've read a bunch about midazolam on a well known french forum about drugs, people were that this thing is strong.
I wonder how didn't you fall asleep while you took 30mg. Are you used to benzos ?
Midazolam was one of the more interesting Drugs I took. It makes you forget the second before the next one. It is such a dreamlike and floaty state.
I once did a rather irresponsible combination consisting of 32% Weed from a Bong + Vodka 200ml + Ketamine 130mg + Midazolam 10mg

The dreamlike state was heavenly let me tell you that. But that was quite the dangerous combo xD
I got knocked out eventually and woke up around 12 hours later fully rested. Was a fun night
 
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Midazolam was one of the more interesting Drugs I took. It makes you forget the second before the next one. It is such a dreamlike and floaty state.
I once did a rather irresponsible combination consisting of 32% Weed from a Bong + Vodka 200ml + Ketamine 130mg + Midazolam 10mg

The dreamlike state was heavenly let me tell you that. But that was quite the dangerous combo xD
I got knocked out eventually and woke up around 12 hours later fully rested. Was a fun night
Sounds like a hell of cocktail haha
Bet you went into a dream state, tolerance helped you not you not to feel asleep right away right ?
It's amazing to think that you were rested after all of that lmao Drugs are not for everyone, but they are for some people yep.

I was also thinking about doing some coke before the day I CTB. Midazolam sounds like a good downer after the coke.
Like having one hell of a fest.
I did coke for 3 months straight in the past, I also did amphetamine 4 months straight. LSD like 4 times. Shrooms 3 times. MDMA a very small dose only once.
That's all I did in my entire life.

Ofc I also took coke and amph occasionally after those 2 hard runs but that's it.

Bros I'm really going to plan this out lmao
 
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That's funny because I live in France and sourced the Oxy from a french vendor too AND as of today, while checking DH the morphine is back on sale from Poland hahahaha
Won't you look at that! Cool to find out you live in France - me too! I´m not French though, but maybe you can teach me some slang before you check in to check out bro hahaha.
How do you plan on testing ? Unless you mess around with opoids, I'm not sure there's a way to replicate this method to know what it takes to not puke?
And I would not mess around with opoids, between the withdrawal and tolerance that builds up quickly, that doesn't sound good.
Oh yea I'm messing around with them. Last one I tested was about 10 days ago. It's mainly to really experience the feeling of them and to see how I can manage the nausea the best - oh and to prove to myself the grapefruit actually does something. Guess what, it does.
Whatever is going on in your life, take care of yourself man.
Thanks bro
Really interested in seeing if it comes through. Is this a regular order or something from the DW?
Surprise surprise, yesterday a box of 'health supplies' came in all the way from India! Safe and sound. (:
Yes. To make it a short answer : The suicide thought went back and forth, depending on the situations. What helped for those 10 years was that I used to smoke weed. while I did the thought kinda went away at times they would always come back. Then I quit smoking. It's been 1 and a half year now. And the suicidal thought came back stronger than ever. I gotta quit the matrix and respawn (or not but I believe we respawn, just withing a different configuration).
I could explain it all in details but that would turn this post into a venting one haha
Kinda funny how I'm talking to a mirror here sort of. Weed also kept me going careless enough to hang on, but I always kept asking questions too. I'm just not keen on respawning in this mess again bro. Maybe DM me because I do really get curious about your thought process about the whole respawning thing you mention.
I always thought the whole system was a scam. Like going to school is just getting "formated" to be able to contribute to society which basically means being a slave as of it is. That's depressing man. I've been thinking about that since I was 8 years old, I'm not shitting you.
Always knew something was wrong. And this is why it made me depressed on top of having junkies as parents.
I was understanding everything. Tried to CTB 2 times before my 20s. Not luck.
After that I had to find a way to forget things, and to not care. Doctor gave me xanax and shit, I took them for 2 months then I switched to weed. It actually worked. As of today, I can't remember the useless stuff lmao
Let give you an example : I used to be able to remember every single things in a TV show. I could tell you what happened in Prison Break S02E07 and all the other episodes.

Anyways

Tried to go ahead, just try to live in this world. Things went "pretty well" if you consider having multiples girlfriends and jobs, having your own appartment and house. But nothing makes sense. it is so obvious that we are just here to be slaved.

I know I am not born into this illusion, for some reason, the illusion work on for some people. The basic illusion is "graduate > work > marry > make babies > work > die happy"

This is so retarded. I wish more people would see this mascarade. "IT WAS ALL A DREAM". It's number 1 bullshit. Which what makes this systems work.
We've been influenced since childhood. Since we were child we were taught to do this or that. For what reason?
Bro, I have nothing to add. There's human connection to live for, but if you talk enough and seek enough truth that's basically what you get to indeed. Otherwise it's all kinda meaningless indeed.
Appreciate your concern bro, no worries I won't abuse them. I don't want to build up a tolerance before I CTB.
I'll just try them.
Yesterday I couldn't sleep, I thought about taking a valium but heh, nope. I took doxylamine instead and let me tell you... It's weak. I understand why they give this shit OTC.

By reading you I understand that you know what "tolerance" means and do to your body, that's wise of you to stop taking meds in between man.
Yea I'm usually only taking a little quetiapine to sleep and if I'm really struggling I'd add a benzo on top, or just lie awake for hours looking at the ceiling lol.
For some reason I really wanna try this midazolam :pfff: I've never been into pills but this sounds nice hahaha
30mg sounds so much. I've read a bunch about midazolam on a well known french forum about drugs, people were that this thing is strong.
I wonder how didn't you fall asleep while you took 30mg. Are you used to benzos ?
I'm not used to benzos at all actually. I have been taking them more regularly since I kinda lost whatever I had going, but with care. I took 15mg of midazolam on it's own before but it didn't realy do anything for me other than get me a little more drowsy but the 30mg let me tell you hahah. Not a dream-like state, but just completely deleted the entire night. If I was to go and try a non-method I'd use midazolam so I could forget all about it the next day lmfao.
Anyways it's very nice to talk to you. I check this forum every day and only response when I'm on the PC because I don't llike people looking over my phone.
Hmu in DM if you want! I don't think we should be continueing this thread because we're going heavilyi off topic by now anyway,
As for the updates, I'm still waiting for the flualprazolam (from GER to FRA) it's been a week now, hopefully I receive it tomorrow...
As well as the Oxy and zolpidem, domestic order so it should be quicker (4 days as of now including the weekend)
And the morphine has been ordered as of tonight, 6*200mg from Poland
Hopefully it will come in quickly as well.
Ah sounds good. I have all I need, but from the looks of it you might be attempting before I will be. If you ordered from the same vendor from poland (which I do think) it will take a week or so for it to arrive.
And today, I was thinking about restricting air, like using a mask. I was thinking about using like 3 medicals mask. Take the drug drink, put on 3 layers of medical mask and lay in the bed.
The goal is to minimize the oxygen input. I'll research more about later, when I gathered all the stuff.
I think that could work actually, but I never liked the idea of doing it like that myself. I'm kind of banking on the 'most natural way' even that doesn't make sense when you stack all these pharmaceuticals. I guess what worries me most is the idea of being found with either a bag on my head or masked up in a weird way. Idk.
Basically, my plan is to acquire all the main stuff this month, gather some more information and CTB on the date of my choice in September.
Already found my hotel btw. A hotel I used to walk by, for some reason I was always interested by this hotel when I was going back from work. Kinda feel bad about the people that will find me there but that's life. How ironic.
Life is one big toiling mess of tension, release, irony, coincidence and known fact. I guess it makes sense you'd go for that hotel. I hope at least it looks nice huh. Take care buddy!
 
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@hdead I'll send you a DM to continue the discussion!

To give you all an update about my situation on acquiring all the stuff, I received the Oxy, zolpidem aswell as the fluaplrazolam yesterday. So basically when everything is available to buy on the DN, one can acquire everything in a week!
And if the vendor accepts the order, my morphine order got cancelled for some reason he didn't want to sell to me.

First time I've seen that in 12 years. Whatever, back to waiting for another vendor to restock.

Tried one flualprazolam yesterday and... tbh it didn't do much.
I was really surprised since I don't have a tolerance to benzos (I think I took 6x0.25mg of alprazolam over the last 8 months so...). I'm pretty much sober, I only drink like 3 times a week and that's it, no meds and no drugs anymore.
I'm pretty sure those flualprazolam that I got are shit :pfff: Tomorrow I'll take 3 of them to see if it makes a difference and give you an update.

So here we are :
Oxy 80mg x6
Diazepam 10mg x20
Ziolpidem 10mg x20
"Flualprazolam" 2mg x 24
Doxylamine 15mg x 9

Just placed an order for the Midazolam and now waiting for the morphine to get back on stock.


I also wanted to ask if anyone has experience with pill crusher ? Found a basic one on amazon https://www.amazon.fr/gp/product/B0BLHJ2DQ3?smid=A1X6FK5RDHNB96&th=1
Any thoughts ?

Thanks. Take care.
 
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fitoo5999

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So
@hdead I'll send you a DM to continue the discussion!

To give you all an update about my situation on acquiring all the stuff, I received the Oxy, zolpidem aswell as the fluaplrazolam yesterday. So basically when everything is available to buy on the DN, one can acquire everything in a week!
And if the vendor accepts the order, my morphine order got cancelled for some reason he didn't want to sell to me.

First time I've seen that in 12 years. Whatever, back to waiting for another vendor to restock.

Tried one flualprazolam yesterday and... tbh it didn't do much.
I was really surprised since I don't have a tolerance to benzos (I think I took 6x0.25mg of alprazolam over the last 8 months so...). I'm pretty much sober, I only drink like 3 times a week and that's it, no meds and no drugs anymore.
I'm pretty sure those flualprazolam that I got are shit :pfff: Tomorrow I'll take 3 of them to see if it makes a difference and give you an update.

So here we are :
Oxy 80mg x6
Diazepam 10mg x20
Ziolpidem 10mg x20
"Flualprazolam" 2mg x 24
Doxylamine 15mg x 9

Just placed an order for the Midazolam and now waiting for the morphine to get back on stock.


I also wanted to ask if anyone has experience with pill crusher ? Found a basic one on amazon https://www.amazon.fr/gp/product/B0BLHJ2DQ3?smid=A1X6FK5RDHNB96&th=1
Any thoughts ?

Thanks. Take care.
you will try this method?
 
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projeccao

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So

you will try this method?
Yes I will and hopefully succeed.
I'll keep this thread updated about every single steps that it took.

I'll probably use a higher dosage than what purebliss said and I'll also use a mask to reduce my oxygen intake on top of the meds.
I'll let you know more about that once I'm done researching.

Date September.
 
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Yes I will and hopefully succeed.
I'll keep this thread updated about every single steps that it took.

I'll probably use a higher dosage than what purebliss said and I'll also use a mask to reduce my oxygen intake on top of the meds.
I'll let you know more about that once I'm done researching.

Date September.
I wish that method could work. I hate that I have to go with SN.
 
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projeccao

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I hate that I have to go with SN.
Why is that ? You don't believe this method is gonna work?

SN sounds pretty reliable. Especially if you have a second cup of drink ready to be drank and at least 24h before being found.
The only part I don't like about SN is that you only rely on benzos/meds to fall asleeps which makes the whole process very hard to time in if you don't want to feel the symptoms of the SN drink.
 
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fitoo5999

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Why is that ? You don't believe this method is gonna work?

SN sounds pretty reliable. Especially if you have a second cup of drink ready to be drank and at least 24h before being found.
The only part I don't like about SN is that you only rely on benzos/meds to fall asleeps which makes the whole process very hard to time in if you don't want to feel the symptoms of the SN drink.
Well it is. I just wanted to leave with a lot of drugs instead of a agony food poisoning.
 
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Then what's stopping you from switching method if I may ask ?
Well I can't hang or do other methods. I am a chicken so I wanted to absorb what would kill me. If I could go with GHB and oxy I would take it trust me but I can't fail. I am soon enough in the street, got my notice to move today. Thing get worst actually
 
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Well I can't hang or do other methods. I am a chicken so I wanted to absorb what would kill me. If I could go with GHB and oxy I would take it trust me but I can't fail. I am soon enough in the street, got my notice to move today. Thing get worst actually
So you are saying that you don't have enough time to gather all the needed drugs ? This method is about not failing which why the dosage is overkill
Sorry if I'm not understanding.
And sorry for what is happening to you. I feel you because I will end up the same in months… I think I still got time but yeah, I won't waste it by hesitating that's for sure.
 
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fitoo5999

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So you are saying that you don't have enough time to gather all the needed drugs ? This method is about not failing which why the dosage is overkill
Sorry if I'm not understanding.
And sorry for what is happening to you. I feel you because I will end up the same in months… I think I still got time but yeah, I won't waste it by hesitating that's for sure.
I thought I had time but he decided to make me move. Well I am pretty depressed and I look like crap with no job anymore. Lost everything in 8 months, beautiful life is gone.
So you are saying that you don't have enough time to gather all the needed drugs ? This method is about not failing which why the dosage is overkill
Sorry if I'm not understanding.
And sorry for what is happening to you. I feel you because I will end up the same in months… I think I still got time but yeah, I won't waste it by hesitating that's for sure.
Well I've seen so much od failing that I don't know what to think anymore. They are of course a lot of drugs to pursue.
 
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I thought I had time but he decided to make me move. Well I am pretty depressed and I look like crap with no job anymore. Lost everything in 8 months, beautiful life is gone.

Well I've seen so much od failing that I don't know what to think anymore. They are of course a lot of drugs to pursue.
Being depressed and trying to find a job is no easy task I understand.
It's crazy how things can turn out real quick. It works in both ways but yeah. Fuck it I'm done.

The crazy part of OD is people ODing by mistake while the people that WANT TO OD fail.

I would not think too much about it and make rational choices to make it work.

Easier said than done, but I believe that with the willing to OD while doing it right will work.

Hence why I'm keeping this thread alive and bringing up the « mask » thing to reduce the oxygen intake. At the very least, one might even suffocate into the vomit so yeah.

And rule number 1 : don't get found. 24h without being found after CTB. At least.
 
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Risingsadness

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It is absolutely incredibly easy

as said. Go to tor.taxi and go to DrugHub there.
Every market on tor.taxi is valid
How do you get Tor? I'm so not tech savvy. I downloaded it but I can't find it on my phone.
 
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How do you get Tor? I'm so not tech savvy. I downloaded it but I can't find it on my phone.
I use Brave browser on laptop and Tor comes with it there's an option to open a link in Tor. not sure about phones tho reading on bigger screen is more comfortable for me sorry if it doesn't answer your question.
 
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Well it is. I just wanted to leave with a lot of drugs instead of a agony food poisoning.
I think this Heath Ledger method (or any other than requires a combination of drugs with benzos etc) is going to be a lot easier than SN... as someone pointed out, the timing is key with SN, otherwise I think it can be an unpleasant experience. With these more professional combinations of drugs, one drifts off in a sort of opiated haze, which is by all accounts a lot better...

I personally just worry about the actual efficacy and validity of all this. No one here is a doctor or pharmacist (AFAIK). How can the same dosage be given to a 50kg anorexic teeenage girl and a 120kg huge man?
 
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fitoo5999

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I think this Heath Ledger method (or any other than requires a combination of drugs with benzos etc) is going to be a lot easier than SN... as someone pointed out, the timing is key with SN, otherwise I think it can be an unpleasant experience. With these more professional combinations of drugs, one drifts off in a sort of opiated haze, which is by all accounts a lot better...

I personally just worry about the actual efficacy and validity of all this. No one here is a doctor or pharmacist (AFAIK). How can the same dosage be given to a 50kg anorexic teeenage girl and a 120kg huge man?
Well easier yes but if this isn't in any pph is because of something. Od can be missed big time. Don't get me wrong I would prefer that than SN but I feel like I have no other choice
 
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I think this Heath Ledger method (or any other than requires a combination of drugs with benzos etc) is going to be a lot easier than SN... as someone pointed out, the timing is key with SN, otherwise I think it can be an unpleasant experience. With these more professional combinations of drugs, one drifts off in a sort of opiated haze, which is by all accounts a lot better...

I personally just worry about the actual efficacy and validity of all this. No one here is a doctor or pharmacist (AFAIK). How can the same dosage be given to a 50kg anorexic teeenage girl and a 120kg huge man?
Since we are not talking about medical dosages I don't think the weight really matters since those dosages are already INSANE.
But even in the medical field, the dosage Opoids are base on the amount of pain the patient feels and they eventually inscrease the dosage if it's not enough. It's not about weight so...
Same for the benzos, it's basically about the anxiety the patient feels and then it gets increased if needed.
 
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Do you know any vendors of Oxycodone, Morphine and Hydrocodone who can ship bulk orders to Russia?
Regulations here are far stricter, and we're dealing with a real shortage.
I'd really appreciate any suggestions 🤗
 
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Do you know any vendors of Oxycodone, Morphine and Hydrocodone who can ship bulk orders to Russia?
Regulations here are far stricter, and we're dealing with a real shortage.
I'd really appreciate any suggestions 🤗
No idea about Russia and DH. But last I've heard, there was specific marketplace for russian people to buy from. Also heard that they don't use the postal services but deliver the package at one place then send you the GPS coordinate for you to pick up the package. Can't help you more man sorry.
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So as of today after gathering many drugs mentioned in this topic I can tell you these things :
1. Flualprazolam is a bitch. The pills I bought were really bad, basically they had no effect or whatsoever. Ended up throwing 18+pills into the toilet since they were shit.
Now I'm gonna buy REAL alprazolam and double the amount mentioned in this post.
That's my advice, just get real alprazolam blister 1mg and double the dosage.

2. I tried the oxycodone.
Long story short, I was drunk asf with a partner. We ended taking 5*80mg of Oxy together, snorted it and maybe ingested ? I don't remember exactly. The only thing I know for sure is that I snorted 80mg, not sure about the reste of the doses. Maybe I took them orally or maybe I snorted them. Really don't remember.

I was basically a zombie for 24h, slept alot, was waking up and fighting to not fall asleep again. First time I threw up was maybe 3 or 4 hours afther the first snort.
The most interesting thing is that I WAS FORGETTING TO BREATHE. Like for real, at times when I was awake I wasn't breathing, my brain took over my thought just to remind me to breathe. And another side effect is that It was really HARD to pee. I remember spending half an hour to try to pee wtf.
This thing if for real.

Note that I didn't take theses oxy to CTB. i was just drunk asf and ended up doing stupid things. But at least that's a feedback.

Now I gotta order more oxy since my stock died :pfff:

But yeah If I can give an advice, don't fuck around with Oxy, it's real strong. Lots of side effect apart from throwing up, you get itchy and nodding aswell. Not a pleasant experience at high dose if you're an opoid naive like me. Or was...
I'm 6"3 and 220 pounds for the record.
 
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No idea about Russia and DH. But last I've heard, there was specific marketplace for russian people to buy from. Also heard that they don't use the postal services but deliver the package at one place then send you the GPS coordinate for you to pick up the package. Can't help you more man sorry.
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So as of today after gathering many drugs mentioned in this topic I can tell you these things :
1. Flualprazolam is a bitch. The pills I bought were really bad, basically they had no effect or whatsoever. Ended up throwing 18+pills into the toilet since they were shit.
Now I'm gonna buy REAL alprazolam and double the amount mentioned in this post.
That's my advice, just get real alprazolam blister 1mg and double the dosage.

2. I tried the oxycodone.
Long story short, I was drunk asf with a partner. We ended taking 5*80mg of Oxy together, snorted it and maybe ingested ? I don't remember exactly. The only thing I know for sure is that I snorted 80mg, not sure about the reste of the doses. Maybe I took them orally or maybe I snorted them. Really don't remember.

I was basically a zombie for 24h, slept alot, was waking up and fighting to not fall asleep again. First time I threw up was maybe 3 or 4 hours afther the first snort.
The most interesting thing is that I WAS FORGETTING TO BREATHE. Like for real, at times when I was awake I wasn't breathing, my brain took over my thought just to remind me to breathe. And another side effect is that It was really HARD to pee. I remember spending half an hour to try to pee wtf.
This thing if for real.

Note that I didn't take theses oxy to CTB. i was just drunk asf and ended up doing stupid things. But at least that's a feedback.

Now I gotta order more oxy since my stock died :pfff:

But yeah If I can give an advice, don't fuck around with Oxy, it's real strong. Lots of side effect apart from throwing up, you get itchy and nodding aswell. Not a pleasant experience at high dose if you're an opoid naive like me. Or was...
I'm 6"3 and 220 pounds for the record.

Honestly, I'm jealous.

In Russia, a single 80-mg pill costs €80–100, compared to about €15 in the rest of Europe — even though salaries here are 3–7 times lower. On top of that, you can easily face 10–20 years for smuggling, whereas the same amount of oxycodone might get you at most 3–5 years in the US and Europe.

I've checked out vendors on DH, but most won't take the hit if a package gets seized in international transit. They usually only offer a 50% refund if it's intercepted within Europe.

I'd like to know what the best stealth methods are if I end up placing a large order...
 
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Honestly, I'm jealous.

In Russia, a single 80-mg pill costs €80–100, compared to about €15 in the rest of Europe — even though salaries here are 3–7 times lower. On top of that, you can easily face 10–20 years for smuggling, whereas the same amount of oxycodone might get you at most 3–5 years in the US and Europe.

I've checked out vendors on DH, but most won't take the hit if a package gets seized in international transit. They usually only offer a 50% refund if it's intercepted within Europe.

I'd like to know what the best stealth methods are if I end up placing a large order...
Feel bad for you man. I know what you mean. I had a friend whom I used to play Dota 2 and he told me all about the situation in Russia... I understand its really bad for the citizens of your country...

And yeah the consequences about the drugs... My russian friend wasn't even willing to speak about drugs on discord because he was so scared of the outcome if he were to be found wtf...
In EU if a 20 pills letter of oxycodone was to be found, I don't even think there would be consequences...

If I were you, I would look for russian marketplace to buy from. I know they are not listed on tor taxi but maybe you can find some on dread ?
I would also be extra careful about the potential scams.

About the stealth, are you talking about how to hide the drug once you have them ? Or you talking about the shipment ?
 
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About the stealth, are you talking about how to hide the drug once you have them ? Or you talking about the shipment ?

I'm talking specifically about shipping arranged by the vendor.

As far as I know, logistics companies and customs authorities use AI-based systems to assess shipment metadata, such as the item's weight, dimensions, description, sender and recipient details, and shipping route. Based on this information, a shipment may be assigned a risk level and selected for manual customs inspection.

I assume the senders are familiar with these procedures, but it would still be worth discussing them directly. The risk of issues caused by incorrectly prepared shipping documents is higher than it would be if the shipment were handled by an experienced professional
 
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I'm talking specifically about shipping arranged by the vendor.

As far as I know, logistics companies and customs authorities use AI-based systems to assess shipment metadata, such as the item's weight, dimensions, description, sender and recipient details, and shipping route. Based on this information, a shipment may be assigned a risk level and selected for manual customs inspection.

I assume the senders are familiar with these procedures, but it would still be worth discussing them directly. The risk of issues caused by incorrectly prepared shipping documents is higher than it would be if the shipment were handled by an experienced professional
If things are really as though as you describe them, then you gotta go with a Russian vendor who knows how to handle those securities barriers.

But then again, there's a reason why Russian vendors don't mess with the postal service and use the drop system…

That's a though spot man.

Just find a Russian marketplace man. That's it.
 
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