Venting New Life?

[scenefairee]

does anyone else feel like no one listens to them? i do. a lot of days ive contemplated suicide because my whole life has been ruined. i never got the right attention i deserved. i do not know what it's like to have a childhood friend that sticks with you or any friend really that gets me. i feel bad at the same time because i feel like i'm being clingy and annoying, but i know that comes from being lonely, my trauma, depression. i dont know what to do with my life. i feel like my family never understood me. my life was always chaotic, and everytime i see people who ive seen around with their lives i wonder what went wrong with me. society has all of these unnecessary beauty norms, how people should act and think, and ive had such a hard time fitting in with it because im not conventional. i dont know what to do anymore, and i feel like dying is the only choice i have.