New boyfriend

[SparkleWater]

I broke up with my last one and now im dating someone new. My new bf understands the whole suicide thing. I also told him about this site (not the name though) and he hasn't judged me at all. I also feel allot happier with them than i did with my ex. I actually had time do develop my feelings compared to my ex.

The thoughts are still there sadly. If not more now since I'm experimenting without prozac which is what i took before. Plus more autistic meltdowns. Which doing some breif reaserch online says that it doesn help with ocd and autism which is what I have.

Maybe i should have known that but I've been on it since I was 14-15 and my mom mostly delt with the medication stuff

Its hard and i think i need it. Like bad. Like having meltdowns three times a week bad. Like my tokerence for stuff is so much lower bad.

I'm also off birthcontrol since i changed insurences and my old gyno didnt take my new one so i have to find someone else.

I also wanna try and distance myself from this site. As much as I think its help me find people that get it without judgment I feel like its bringing me down at the same time. Especially with teaching me methods and such. Though I don't want this to be the first thing i go to when I do feel like that.

 

[nayomi]

maybe you can deactivate the suicide forum if you dont like it?

 

[Kenny]

Finding someone that can actually understand suicide and the emotional pain behind it can be rare, so congratulations! Moving away from SaSu can also be a big milestone to recovering, while there are lots of recovery resources here, the website is centred around.. well.. suicide.