Venting Never daring to hope again

[Dissolving Figment]

The meds haven't done shit for my financial situation
I'm just fucking lazy
Its not fucking ADHD
I won't ever resolve my fucking discipline issues
It's just who I fucking am at this point
Worthless
Unproductive
Of no value to society

I was a fucking moron again
This girl I talked to
And played this game with every single day
For the past however many months
I crushed on her
Like I always do cause I'm a desperate fucking freak
The day after my suicide attempt
I don't ask her to play
She doesn't ask me either and she just gets a new random person to play with
It really is just a fucking game to her
Cause she's a well adjusted fucking individual
I'm the only pathetic loser freak imagining a future with her
I don't blame her either
I've been penniless for fucking years
Who could fall for me
I'm a disgusting broke delusional creep
I can't wait to CTB
I spent my whole life wishing for things that anyone should be able to achieve in weeks
And endlessly fucking up for years

 

[lexx]

same...
bout the second, my relationship with the opposite sex is bullshitt they only see me as a sex object.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

Yes I wish for things that I am dumb at like getting a degree, having a stable life, living freely, living without rules and system and so on..... The problem or fault is not you! It was how that person get the cared growing up, opportunity, childhood neglects ( that's one of the reasons why some of us desperately seek any type of validation or admiration and comfort in online or offline through a person or any ideas it's not YOUR FAULT, it's how neglects and childhood shaped our life I don't know about your childhood but it connects through our life) how everything turned around without support and living with people who abused you in anyway.... I'm sorry I hope you can have peace with yourself.