Venting Nervous about gun buying

[inevitableandplannd]

I'm on the verge of getting a single-round 12ga shotgun to CTB soon. I looked through TAW122's guide, which was informative, and I found the FFL dealer I wanna use & verified I can ship to them and do the BG check and whatever else with them.

So why am I so nervous? I keep having these paranoid thoughts that they'll be able to tell why I'm buying it and basically laugh me out of the shop, and keep the gun. I'm also a little nervous about the interpersonal aspect of CTB. I have a few people who I know will be a bit put out by all that, and even though this is the only way, the people pleaser in me can't stop thinking that I can somehow set up my death in a way that brings them peace and comfort.

Other than that, it's exciting to be so close to freedom! If I could escape some other way, I would, but that's just the way these things go. I love so many things and animals and people, and I will miss them dearly. But I will finally be free

 

[ilovemydog]

This is EXACTLY how I feel. I never thought I would find someone else going through the same emotions and thoughts about this as me..

 

[1MiserableGuy]

I'm on the verge of getting a single-round 12ga shotgun to CTB soon. I looked through TAW122's guide, which was informative, and I found the FFL dealer I wanna use & verified I can ship to them and do the BG check and whatever else with them.

So why am I so nervous? I keep having these paranoid thoughts that they'll be able to tell why I'm buying it and basically laugh me out of the shop, and keep the gun. I'm also a little nervous about the interpersonal aspect of CTB. I have a few people who I know will be a bit put out by all that, and even though this is the only way, the people pleaser in me can't stop thinking that I can somehow set up my death in a way that brings them peace and comfort.

Other than that, it's exciting to be so close to freedom! If I could escape some other way, I would, but that's just the way these things go. I love so many things and animals and people, and I will miss them dearly. But I will finally be free

I have something of the opposite problem. I would love to own a gun for purely self defense reasons. My wife won't allow me to because of my history of suicidal ideation, but she doesn't understand that it's just plain and simply not one of my ctb options. Way too much room to get that one wrong and live life with a new disability.

 

[inevitableandplannd]

This is EXACTLY how I feel. I never thought I would find someone else going through the same emotions and thoughts about this as me..

Me neither; that's rather interesting to me. I wish you peace on your journey. And thank you for commenting. I feel less alone because of it.

I have something of the opposite problem. I would love to own a gun for purely self defense reasons. My wife won't allow me to because of my history of suicidal ideation, but she doesn't understand that it's just plain and simply not one of my ctb options. Way too much room to get that one wrong and live life with a new disability.

i know what you mean about having no interest in a particular option. also, big agree on the fear of vegetizing -- when it's my turn i'm probably going to use a mirror or something to make sure i'm at a good angle for the medulla oblongata.

in any case, i feel you, and i wish you peace <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck in your plans, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[TAW122]

I was nervous years ago when I bought mine (like over 6 years ago or so) and I would just say that it's normal to be a little nervous, but I would do my best to maintain composure. This is because if you give off any hesitation or awkwardness, it may raise some suspicion or at least invite some unwanted probing into your intentions. Anyways, I would just say once you have selected the firearm you want, sent it to the FFL of your choice, and then you just show up and fill out the paperwork (Form 4473) then they do a background check, and if you passed (which I believe you would assuming you are not a prohibited person), then congratulations, you can walk out with the firearm that you legally purchased!

 

[LunarLight]

I have something of the opposite problem. I would love to own a gun for purely self defense reasons. My wife won't allow me to because of my history of suicidal ideation, but she doesn't understand that it's just plain and simply not one of my ctb options. Way too much room to get that one wrong and live life with a new disability.

If you put the gun in your mouth and aim for the brainstem, there are 0.01% chances you fail.

 

[ham and potatoes]

As someone who has spent their whole life around guns, and living in a very gun friendly place, being nervous about buying a gun is kinda foreign to me.
If you were clearly nervous, clueless about guns, and trying to by an AR15 with a 50 round mag, that might draw some attention.
But the fact your buying a single shot shotgun shouldnt raise any eyebrows.

 

[Nikitatos]

Gun store employees are just like employees at any store. They're not looking for terrorists or suicidal people. They're just there do to their job.

 

[1MiserableGuy]

If you put the gun in your mouth and aim for the brainstem, there are 0.01% chances you fail.

.01% too high

 

[LunarLight]

.01% too high

I understand, but no methods are foolproof.