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- Apr 6, 2024
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Hello,
I have been consulting this site for a while now and preparing my attempt. I'm not very active simply because of the language barrier. I'm very bad at English. Probably because the French school system is rotten and I always had horrible teachers who made me hate this subject. Paradoxically, if I were to be reincarnated I would like to be a little American girl, a champion cheerleader. In short...
Everything is now ready for my attempt. I will go with SN. The idea would be to do it in August, when I will be alone at home while my parents are on vacation with my nephews. My SN comes from DMC and I am sure it is operational. So there is no chance that I will fail. Maybe calling for help. But due to my autism I am unable to call. And to be sure that IF didn't make me do it, I was thinking of locking my phone in a safe with a key.
Do you think my plan is reliable enough?
Now I will talk about my few remaining concerns.
I'm worried about who will find me, I know that my parents will worry after a few days without news. So they will call a neighbor to check. But I know that discovering a body is quite traumatic, what can I do to make it a little less difficult ?.
I'm also a little afraid of being alone, if I ever fail I won't be able to cope and that scares me.
Then also my life is deteriorating more and more currently, and waiting another 2 months to end it seems to me like an eternity, how can I "appreciate" the end of my life, that these two months seem shorter?
I have been consulting this site for a while now and preparing my attempt. I'm not very active simply because of the language barrier. I'm very bad at English. Probably because the French school system is rotten and I always had horrible teachers who made me hate this subject. Paradoxically, if I were to be reincarnated I would like to be a little American girl, a champion cheerleader. In short...
Everything is now ready for my attempt. I will go with SN. The idea would be to do it in August, when I will be alone at home while my parents are on vacation with my nephews. My SN comes from DMC and I am sure it is operational. So there is no chance that I will fail. Maybe calling for help. But due to my autism I am unable to call. And to be sure that IF didn't make me do it, I was thinking of locking my phone in a safe with a key.
Do you think my plan is reliable enough?
Now I will talk about my few remaining concerns.
I'm worried about who will find me, I know that my parents will worry after a few days without news. So they will call a neighbor to check. But I know that discovering a body is quite traumatic, what can I do to make it a little less difficult ?.
I'm also a little afraid of being alone, if I ever fail I won't be able to cope and that scares me.
Then also my life is deteriorating more and more currently, and waiting another 2 months to end it seems to me like an eternity, how can I "appreciate" the end of my life, that these two months seem shorter?