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SpaxeZ
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- Feb 28, 2021
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I really need to commit suicide as soon as possible as everyday is like a f..ing torture for me every minute every hour I feel like hell. I have my own reasons and found my method which is shallow water blackout. I really love going this way but the thing I realized is it's not possible in cold waters even in summer the ocean I'm going to try it in is still going to be super cold and more so I can't stay till then anyway. Thought about doing it in swimming pool but don't want to be saved by life guard and suffer more. I was also thinking about drowning like jumping from a bridge but the thing that makes me afraid again is that cold freezing water makes your chance of rescue higher as it shuts down organs and keeps more oxygen for the brain and there have been cases of drowned people being rescued after one hour. I also thought about some deep and not so crowded lakes I had in mind but I really have no Idea where their deep part begins and even how I can get myself into those parts as with this freezing weather I can't swim to reach that area. I like SN as well but can't really see in myself to be able to get my hands on it. I searched wet suits and they are kind of expensive but not that much. They are supposed to help one swim in cold waters. For the last try I I thought about tying myself under a boat with some ropes but that would need some skill in how tie knots that I don't know much about and still the cold freezing water would make that hard. At the same time I feel like winter and cold weather gives me such a courage to commit. Need your opinions. Thank you!
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