Need help with either Carbon Monoxide, SN, or partial hanging

[iwashere]

Yeaaa basically the title says it. Earlier this month i was about to ctb by burning charcoals in a cooking pot and putting it in my car, but the fire never went out. i stayed for two hours waiting for it to finally go out so i could put it in my car. I bought sleeping pills that i was going to take so by the time the charcoal was ready, i could place it on a metal disc i brought along with me. after i realized the fire wasn't going to go out i said fuck it and left. well i'm back to try again. every single thing in my body that's asking me to consider how others will feel has finally shut the fuck up. i don't have a gun nor do i care to spend the money on one right now so its between trying the charcoals again, SN or hanging. Ye well i dont know where the fuck to get SN and the places online i've found only sell to businesses or look sketchy. I might try the charcoals again but how long do i have to wait before the fire goes out?!? like jesus christ i was there for two fucking hours and i walk over and the fire is still going!!! and hanging… i've been trying to locate the exact spots where id need to hang the rope and i only feel my face buldging and a lot of pressure in my head. its imperative that the method is as peaceful as possible so im not jumping from a building. i was honestly considering slitting the sides of my thighs, neck, and arm but thats fucking insane for me to do i can already imagine me flinching digging the knife into my skin and then chickening out, now i have to explain why there is blood everywhere. If anybody could help me locate SN, help me with the charcoal method or give hanging advice (i read the guide but other advice perhaps) it would be greatly appreciated. I'm not tall, i'm 5'2 and pretty lean. I'm about 105 lbs so i feel like finding the carotid artery in my neck shouldn't be as fucking difficult as it is. Excuse the aggressive tone of the post i'm not mad at any of you i'm just so ready to go like if i get the advice and figure it out it's happening tonight ive already made the goodbye videos it's just a matter of the sun going down. thank you all :)

 

[LeavingEarly]

I think the charcoal red hot is ok you just don't want them black or still smoking. Have heard about an hour.

 

[spero_meliora]

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as for SN... there are many clues around the site. stick around a bit, and you'll find them. people are now a little careful and vague due to pro-life bad actors, so don't expect someone to tell you outright anytime soon about a direct source. but I assure you with a bit of searching and following breadcrumbs, you can find it.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

How did you light the charcoal? Did you douse them with lighter fluid?

 

[iwashere]

I think the charcoal red hot is ok you just don't want them black or still smoking. Have heard about an hour.

ohhhh okay so it should usually take around that time for the fire to go out? i kinda wanna do this tn and ive been practicing partial hanging for like the last 20 min and i just can't get it right. my head starts to hurt and idk if i want to do full hanging that looks rly scary haha so i don't think im gonna do SN either because of the time it takes to arrive and the risk of it being intercepted at customs/welfare check. it's kinda expensive too haha

How did you light the charcoal? Did you douse them with lighter fluid?

yes i used Kingsman fire starter. when i went to check the pot of charcoals the bottom hadn't even been touched so maybe it was a problem w the way the charcoals were sitting but someone else said it should take around an hour for the fire to go out. if thats the case ill start it in advance so by nighttime its ready and i can put them in the car.
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as for SN... there are many clues around the site. stick around a bit, and you'll find them. people are now a little careful and vague due to pro-life bad actors, so don't expect someone to tell you outright anytime soon about a direct source. but I assure you with a bit of searching and following breadcrumbs, you can find it.

yessss haha i did infact find a source, but since im committed to doing this tn because i dont want to wake up feeling like this like… ever again im pretty sure im gonna do a partial hanging or the charcoals. leaning more towards charcoal because i just cannot figure out this hanging shit haaaaa it's rly starting to aggravate me