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suicidal autistic
- Mar 14, 2024
- 7
I asked my psychiatrist to lower my meds. Thought they weren't doing anything. A couple days after she did, I started seeing things behind my eyes. I got this unshakable sense of anxiety so bad I threw up from it. A few days ago I started scratching myself until it bled to cope. I started having flashbacks yesterday. It's only been like a week but I don't know how much more I can take before I try something I'll regret. I don't want to ctb over something that'll only last another week (that's when I have a check-in with my psychiatrist). I already tried emailing her and she just said to wait to check in in a week.
You may be saying "just go back up on the meds without her permission" but I live with my parents and they dole out my meds because I'm considered a suicide risk and also have autism (they're still legally my parents even though I'm 21, I don't really know how legal stuff works)
What do I do? How do I cope? Do I go to the ER? They could probably get my meds sorted out faster if I went to a mental hospital, but there's uh other risks associated with that.
You may be saying "just go back up on the meds without her permission" but I live with my parents and they dole out my meds because I'm considered a suicide risk and also have autism (they're still legally my parents even though I'm 21, I don't really know how legal stuff works)
What do I do? How do I cope? Do I go to the ER? They could probably get my meds sorted out faster if I went to a mental hospital, but there's uh other risks associated with that.
